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Welp, it's been five days since Sam's bothered to communicate with me, even when I gave you a second chance, so again, I guess I'm back to being single because he's always one to hit the "Whatever" button whenever I throw my problems at him. I have to admit, he took my curve ball on the army issue rather well, and I felt better knowing that he was thinking about me first, but I'm thinking it's a whole lot a talk and not quite so much action since I haven't heard from him in five days, and probably won't here from him for another two weeks. When I told my mom about him going to the army, and how he said when he got out he wanted to marry me, she told me that it was a abdi dea, and that with someone like Sam I would suffer not physically, but mentally and emotionally. My mom is my beckon in the darkness, so that pushed me even more towards my decision not to date him anymore. But you know what? On top of that, the girl I like ditched me all day the day before last, and then came to me all sad like about her family issues and expected me to comfort her. HELLO, okay, you know what? When you're having a conversation with someone and you say you'll be right back, get this BRB means " I'll be RIGHT back." Like, fifteen minutes, ect. She told me brb and was gone ALL DAY. When you like someone, that's a blow to the throat, you know what I'm saying? So I wouldn't say anything to her to comfort her about her family issues, and she ditched. Ridiculous. Why do I have to be attracted to the most pessimistic people? Okay you know what? I need optimism. I need to date someone who's exciting, and spontenious, and mind blowing, and bright and witty and affectionate, because all I'm getting is false devotion, aggitation, contrast like nails on a chalk board, and cynical views. My mom told me never settle for second best, if there's something I don't want, then don't take it, and that's what I'm going to do from now on, because I'm tired of this crap.


-Thisdarkness