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I know I haven't been as regular to write these past few weeks as I once was. I have been rather busy with other pursuits actually. Things have been rather odd here. My hubby has seen to it that he goes to bed later on weekend nights when we are home and half the time we are gone on weekends working on the land. As for week days I am so concerned helping my youngest son through the advanced math class they thought they had to put him in at the school. I hope the boy manages to just plain pass the class. When we move however, we will move him to a regular math class for 7th graders and out of the advanced math class. I would have talked to his math teacher during open house, but, wonder of wonders, she wasn't there. Not that she didn't have a good reason. Her son was sick. I can understand that but what are we concerned parents supposed to do until we can do something about things like this?

Something else that I have been concerned with is trying to figure out my husband. He all the sudden wanted us to start drinking for some reason. Just a little. Not a nightly thing and not out partying. I half way think he is up to something. Ok... I totaly think the man is up to something but I don't know what. When a man tries to get his wife to do something that she just doesn't do then it makes her have to wonder about it. I did ask him. He doesn't have a real answer. His one answer was that we never actually drank much together in our childless days. Which is true. We didn't. I drank mostly with old friends. YOu see, I decided that when I got married I would only social drink. My drinking was out of control before getting engaged to him. But when we started dating I pretty much put all of that aside and rarely drank. We hadn't dated long when we decided we wanted to get married. So it was just social drinking then. But then after we got married it was only a few months before I was expecting son #1. He was only about a year old when I came home from a work party drunk as a skunk and litterally crawled across a gravel driveway from my neighbors house (she is the one I went to the party with and she brought me home) and I was still picking gravel out of my knees the next day. I also tossed my cookies all over the place. I decided the next morning when I was suffering from a hang over that beat the band when I decided that having a family and drinking didn't mix. I never wanted my children to ever see me like that. Sooo I haven't had a drink since then and that was over 18 years ago... that is until the weekend I got back from my trip to IL.
Needless to say I am trying to figure out the real reason behind why he has spent the last few weekends trying to get me drunk. I think he is figuring out that I keep my head when I drink. I don't forget anything when I wake up the next day. And I would rather toss my cookies now then suffer a hang over. So far no hang over. And so far the hubby is frustrated. I remember now exactly why I no longer drink. I don't like the taste of it or the feel of it. I like being in control of my own head. And he can stay frustrated for all I care because the drinking just makes me feel all wrong.

until next time...