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When people say they’re gay but really aren’t. How can you suddenly say you want to be gay? Half the time it’s some chick that says it because her boyfriend “Screwed up” her life. You are born a homosexual or you are not one! Any of you ******** that claim to be gay but never had those urges since birth are just fooling yourselves. For ******** sake be real. Be yourself, make yourself, but don’t make yourself into someone you aren’t and never were. I was born with urges towards women. I’ve been with women. I know what I desire. I always had some slight urges towards men also but not enough that I followed into them. Later towards the age of fourteen I decided I’d try out guys also. How can you label what you are? All sex and pleasure is, are sensations. If it feels good; by god I’ll do it. I’m sorry that I can’t give an exact quote for the conversation; but several months ago Max and Ace had a conversation about homosexuality. It went something along the lines of that some species of animals start producing homosexuals to lower those who have the urge to mate with one of the opposite species. This occurs when there’s overpopulation of that certain species and it occurs to lower the species populations. And perhaps that’s why the amount of homosexuals seems to be higher now. Is that because humans are becoming so overpopulated and nothing is removing us fast enough (not even natural deaths) that when reproducing the child is made to not have urges for the opposite sex, but the same. I hate how this world is. Everyone wants to make a baby; but the baby has to be of their own flesh and blood. It cannot be anyone else’s. I want to get my uterus taken out probably at the age of twenty (just to make sure I’ve had plenty of time to think about it). I don’t want to bring another child into the world. I am too much a sadist and sexual deviant to do so. It would be blasphemy to me. I cannot handle the stress of raising a child; I have done so with two for about five years. And never, NEVER want to do that again. And it saddens me if I stay with Max for years to come I wont give him a child he wishes. I cannot do that. And he’s one of those that wants a child of their own.

So I watched Beowulf the other day (the new one). It was an okay movie. I may rewatch it. But honestly they did great on the graphics, but the facial expressions half the time looked like putty Barbie dolls. You know you’d really think after Hrothgar and Beowulf made the same mistake that the third guy would learn a lesson. Now really? In all fairness there was no showing of whether or not he also did it but it seems like that was the direction it was going. Anthony Hopkins did a good job at playing Beowulf. I think some part she could have done a little better. But maybe I’m attributing more to the visuals of the movie than the actual voice acting. Almost all of the characters in the movie looked very closely to the actual actors. Especially Grendel’s mother (Angelina Jolie); she looks exactly like Angelina. I’m ashamed to have seen the movie before reading the book of it. But from what I do know this movie takes of closer to the end of the story. So it ruined the ending. But it was a given the great hero would die.

So, during the inspection the b***h next door told the property owner that we had dogs. Most of you would know her as Norma Sears (Mrs. Groom’s new assistant, para, whatever her job is). Yes, we do have dogs but they don’t live here and therefore aren’t breaking any of the rules for these apartments. When we move din we tol her our situation and asked if it was okay to bring over Orca and maybe the dogs occasionally to pet them, and the property manager said it was fine. Oh, I don’t understand why she would go and say a thing like that. She’s a ******** child. She hasn’t grown out of high school. She’s a little tattle tale ho. If you have a ******** problem with us then come talk the s**t to our face. The reason she still lives in these apartments with her kids is that she’s not adult enough to have a supporting career. She’ll never get anywhere. And she’ll never make it out of her s**t job and that’s the reason her ex-husband left her. And why her ex is so ******** ugly. He’s the only one with bad enough tastes to ever want to ******** that disgusting c**t.

Mr. Phelps is just killing me every day. He’s such a ******** dumbass. He treats everyone like s**t and expects respect. How do you ever expect respect when you call your students idiots every day. How you preach Kansas is the best place ever, how you cannot spell the simplest of words (must I remind you of COMP HE SHUN). I had a worksheet about a week or two ago. One of the questions was something about Japan and why it did something. And he says something like Why did the Japans do this? I write out on the side that they’re called Japanese. Apparently he wanted the word to say Japan as in possessive form. Has he never heard of punctuation marks such as; oh I don’t know an apostrophe.

About a week ago I ordered my Cirque du Soleil tickets. I have seats in section 110, row B. So they’re decent seats for being off the ground. I got them about two days after ordering. I’m so excited to go.

Brooding is what I do. I’m gladdened each and every day I read Laurell K. Hamilton’s blog. She’s such a real person while also writing books almost everyday, being a mother, and a wife. She still devotes her time to her fans. Even if it is just to write a blog occasionally. I love how she can still be such a real person I can relate to and still do all this stuff.

Enrollment sucks, still. This year we have to have a full first semester; so that means I can’t have a few classes off at the end of the day. I only need my government, English, math, and two elective credits. But I guess I’ll go for the Regents requirements. I just need Chemistry, computer information systems (CIS), and a foreign language would be a good addition. I want GERMAN! They’ll offer Mandarin-Chinese with a video link professor but not German?! ********?