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For anyone reading this, sorry, i'm just venting
God! I'm gonna go out of my effin' mind around here. I've been having tough days at school with headaches and assholes and just a lot of bull s**t, but i also have to come home to my brother acting up and nothing to look forward to but talk to Candace on the computer, which i didn't even get to do for 3 days. It wasn't her fault. She was busy with play practice and homework and stuff like that and i can understand that, so monday through wednesday were just nerve-racking. Then i have to deal with stupid bullshit from people to the point where i want to just beath their faces in. I even got into an argument with my friend wil and he got me wondering what would happen if i jumped out a window. Granted, i'd never commit suicide because so many people would hate me and be miserable and maybe even commit suicide as well, but he got me wondering. Now, i'm stuck at home, noting to do. I can't go anywhere, i can't do anything, all because my parents have to go out and i have to watch my brothers. I'm about to break down because it all effin' sucks!!!!! I just want to go to sleep and not wake up. I'm not going to see candace for weeks on end and it's going to drive me insane because I worry so much and I always want to be with her. You can say it's obsessive or whatever, but I'm in love, s**t is going to happen where i'm gonna want to be around her...hell i want to be around her so i can console her and vise versa because i really don't feel well either. Like I said, i'm going out of my mind...well i'm just going to go. I really just feel like s**t and there's nothing i can do to make it better...i just have to accept it i guess
 Aka_Saiyaku · Sat Mar 08, 2008 @ 02:36am · 0 Comments |
