Well, yesterday was a good day, and yet a really, really bad day for me, because of course I got in a fight with Jessica about what she had done, and how she was acting toward our friendship, and so now she wants distance for a while, and I do as well. I'm really scared that we might not even talk again, because we don't really have any reason to talk to one another anymore. We can't talk about how cool our characters are, or make up funny plots to put them in, or have heart wrenching stories about their relationships and lives, so what's to keep us together? It makes me really sad that it ended this way when she was my first, and the one that means the most to me when it comes to this hobby, because not only did she introduce me to it, but she taught me how to do it, and it was kind of the glue to our friendship. We had a lot in common, and we got along well most of the time, but now I don't know that we'll get passed this, and my need for distance is to mourn over her lack of caring for our relationship, and the loss of it as well.
Jen hasn't talked to me in a while either, and it's only been three days now, but that is still a rather long time for us not to talk. I guess she's probably busy, but I could really use some support at this point, and I'm getting that only from one person, and it helped in the beginning when Jessica was just being mean, but now, since she doesn't really know about how it's bothering me, I don't think she can comfort me much at this point. My insecurities are beginning to sink in really deep, and I don't know that I'll be keeping Jessica as a friend, or when I'll hear from Jen again, and even though I roleplay with these people, they matter to me a lot, and the foundation isn't the only thing about losing the relationship that makes me very, very sad.
-Thisdarkness
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