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"Broken"
Love if you want to
Love if you can
For I will always love you
And I'll always be here, just reach for my hand
Maybe this isn't right
But it feels right to me
So, go on, hold me tight
Never set me free
But if you have to leave
I suggest you go now
For I don't want false hopes, don't want to believe
I would be far beyond broken and I wouldn't understand how...
Even if you don't love me
Please, at least be my friend
For without you I just couldn't be
My heart would be broken and it would never mend
"Make it stop"
"I'm sorry" is all I can say
I wish it wasn't true...
But I wont lie to you today
I love both him and you
I know it's not right...
But nothing can be done
Please...I beg you don't leave my sight
I need you to stay not run...
I know that this hurts you...
But it kills me to even think of you hurt because of me
I almost wish it wasn't true...
Though I'll beg you not to flee
This is all my fault...
Don't try to tell me differently because it's not true
My heart I will shut off, lock it in the vault
I hate myself for hurting you
As these tears fall from my eyes
All I can hear is you laughing in my ear
I wish I could just die
Than I wouldn't have to worry if you're far or near
I curl up on my bed
Not wanting to hear anything or think anything
But all I can think and hear is you in my head
And just so you know this hurts much more than just a sting
My heart will stop beating...
For it can no longer beat for you
My laugh will never be heard again
For you aren't there to make me laugh
My eyes will never sparkle like they did for you
For now they cry for your return
I'm so cold...
And nothing will ever be able to warm me up
I was left out in the snow
Though I will never blame you, only myself
I've hurt you and I know I deserve this...
I wish it would hurt more...
Than maybe I would just die
In a way I want you to forget me
Than maybe you wouldn't hurt
You would be happy
I wouldn't be weighing you down...
Just know I'll always love you
For now I'll just repeat these words over and over
"I'm sorry..." though I know that wont make it any better
"I love you..." though I don't except you to believe me anymore...
I miss you my goku...and I'm sorry...
Someone shoot me already...
Just make this pain ******** stop!
"Dangle"
I hear his voice every night
Though I'll never figure out who it is
I try to ignore it, but there's no hope in sight
Yet I cant come to hate this
I love the sound of it as it rings in my ear
Makes me want to jump for joy
That's how I know you're near
I promise I would never use you like a toy
I want to capture that sound of it
Forever have it ringing so loud and clear
I'm going to hold on to every little bit
For I always want you here
I know who's voice this is
It's the voice of an angel
I never want to end this
But if I must, everyone will see how I dangle
"Imagine"
I can only imagine what it's like..
What does it feel like...
to touch you
to kiss you
to hug you
but most of all...
what does it feel like to just be with you?
I want you so badly...
I could never put it into words...
Though this will be my sad attempt
Skin touching skin so gently but with so much passion
Lips locked together forgetting about everything else but each other
Holding on so tightly afraid to let go
Eyes opening to see smiles on both faces
Fingers running through hair so softly on this cold winter night
Breathes being gasped in at any moment given
Heat begins to rise as we begin this act
Hearts beating to this rhythm of love
There's nothing I'd rather do than spend my time with you
So I beg you, don't stop now...
Hands moving every which way
Sounds I makes and sounds I hear are nothing I'd ever expect
Butterflies in my tummy begin to flutter like mad
Strength is wearing away, but I don't want this to end
Ears hear every word you decide to say
And as this comes to a sad end, I know this night I will never regret
For as long as your are here by my side, I cant ever remember what was wrong
You make all the pain disappear, all the fear fade away
Just know that I love you now and I plan to forever...
even if you forget me...
"Today..."
I close my eyes and I see you
I blast my music but I hear you singing along
I talk to someone else but all I hear is your voice
I laugh along with my friends but it's you laugh I hear
I just cant get you of my mind
I love to think about you so much
I just cant stop my heart from beating for you
But that's okay, I don't need it anymore...I've got you
Maybe this wont work, but I know I'll always love you
I don't care what others think as long as you're by my side
So hold me tight and never let me go...
For I will hold you so very tight
If you ever want me to stop, just say the word and it will be done
Of course I'll love you forever
For I could never forget you
But i would never let you know how it kills me inside
I would lay there in bed
Maybe replay a few things in my head
And I know these thoughts of you wont ever go away
But I wont worry about it today
"Blessed"
What do I do?
I do one thing and I hurt him...
Than I do the opposite and I hurt you
Either ways it's quite grim
Sometimes I cry myself to sleep
Other times I don't even let the tears form in my eyes
I would look for a way out, but I'm in too deep
I'll just make sure no one hears my cries
Watch me put on this smile so neither of you have to worry
Don't even bother to ask what's wrong
Everything I see will always be blurry
Even though I'm weak, I'll pretend to be strong
I love you both so very much
I just wish you wouldn't hate each other so
For I need you both; need your touch
I want you two to get along and not be foes
I can only ask you to try
But I'm asking you to try your best
I'm not asking you to lie...
So even if in the end you two still don't get along,...
I know just meeting both of you makes me so very blessed
"This Feeling"
What's this feeling hidden inside me?
Is it fear?
Is it guilt?
It is hate?
Could it be love?
Could it be happiness?
or maybe security?
Whatever this is, it's driving me insane
I need to know what's going on inside of me
Trying to knock down these walls
Get the first look at my heart;my soul
Tell me if it's still beating...or if I even have a heart left
And if I do, try to figure out what this feeling is...please?
Am I broken?
Have I hated everyone from the beginning?
Or am I just a sad little girl waiting for love?
Just waiting to be taken into a place were it's safe?
Whatever this is, I don't care anymore!
Please...don't leave me...
As long as you hold me in your arms I'll be okay
Because when I'm with you, this feeling goes away
In it's place is a feeling I know all too well
This new feeling is the feeling of love
So kiss me while you can
Tell me you love me too...
Because who knows, one day we might just disappear
And than this will end and we'll be through...
"This Night"
Eyes wanting to close everything off and just see you
But that's not what I should do
For if I close my eyes nice and tight
I might just disappear this very night
Heart doesn't want to beat anymore
It hurts too much, there just cant be a cure
Take my heart out of my chest and lock it away
I don't think it will do anyone any good tomorrow or today
Ears shutting everything out but your voice
I listen intently but not by choice
For even though I love how it sounds
I just cant keep being lost than found
Skin burning for your touch
I think this is a little too much
Make it go away; come home dear
Then I would no longer have to fear
Promise to never leave me
For then I wont want to see
Make me open my eyes and see what's true
Don't let me be blinded, let me see you
Promise that my heart will always beat for you
You're my cure, you help me make it through
It's okay, you can keep my heart
I think it's time for a new start
Promise that your voice I will always hear
I will always love the sound of it dear
Keep on saying those sweet things
I love the comfort your voice brings
Promise to never let me go
Let's take it easy; just go with the flow
Just hold me tightly on this cold winter night
For you are my reason to keep on fighting this fight
"To You"
Snow falling as I take another step
I hear...crunch....crunch... than silence for a moment
I stop my feet to take in what's all around me
And as I breathe in crisp, cold air...I cant help but think of you
Right now the sky's crying tears of sorrow
The raindrops fall one by one...drip...drip...
Mother nature cries for the worlds loss
For you never even had a go
The leaves fall all around me, dancing among the bare trees
I smile to myself as I slowly dance along with them
Swaying my hips side to side, I remember when we danced
And as I laugh aloud to myself...ha...ha...a tear slowly slips down my cheek
Sitting in the sun on the park bench, I hum along to a lovely tune
Don't quite remember what melody, but it's something you sung
It's more beautiful when I close my eyes and hear your voice humming along
For than I know I'm not alone, and once again we sing in harmony...la...la...
I remember when we used to play in the snow
We'd have so much fun than fall to the ground completely out of breathe
For one moment, we would lay there in complete silence thinking
And take in gasps of air trying to get our breath back
I remember when we used to play in the rain
We didn't care how wet we got as long as we had our fun
You always did love mother nature and now we know she loves you
And even though you weren't here for long, you left a rather big impact
I remember when we used to play in the leaves
Dancing along with them as they fell from the trees
Bumping our hips together in a rhythmic beat
And we would laugh until tears came to out eyes
I remember when we used to play in the park
We would sing out made up tunes, our made up songs
You always thought my voice was lovely and I thought the same
And even though we didn't always think the same, we always sung together
All the memories come flooding back to me on this cold winter night
Remembering all the good and the bad things that we went through
When I think about you, I either laugh and smile or cry and frown
But either way I know I'll always find my way back to you
 miroku fan 101 · Fri Feb 20, 2009 @ 11:04pm · 0 Comments |
