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Love, Honesty, and Destiny
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"Soar"
This feeling in my chest
Where did it come from?
Whatever this feeling is, it's the best
Why am I no longer numb?
I'm laughing so hard and I don't know why
How come you make me smile?
I cant help but look at you while you watch the sky
Why do you always wait awhile?
I'm crying the tears I used to
Why do you even try?
I'm in your arms so close to you
Should I even try to lie?
This comfort that I feel
I've never felt it before...so why now?
I know all of this is real
Do you even know why or how?
The feeling in my chest is my heart
It comes from you; you made it beat
This feeling comes from a new start
And it'll be this way until the day we meet
The laughing comes from me
You're the cause of all of my smiles
When I look at you, the more I see
And I know if you wanted to see me, you'd walk so many miles
These tears are not your own
Yet you still try to comfort me
You hold me close as if you should have known
As long as you're here I'm free
The comfort that I feel comes from you
You help me feel things I've never felt before
I have no idea what you're trying to do
But you know without you I cannot soar

"Meeting"
I'm so afraid to lose you
I just cant lose you now...
There's nothing you can do
And I don't know why I get these feelings or how
You mean the world to me
I just wish you knew how much that really was
Without you I just couldn't be
And I want to be with you just because
I don't know why you haven't left yet
Anyone else would have long gone by now
I trust you more than anyone though we've never met
And I have a feeling you're never going to say good-bye or take that final bow
You let your lips turn up into a beautiful smile
Yours is so contagious I cant help but smile too
I may have to wait awhile
But I know it will be worth meeting you

"I'm sorry"
I'm sorry if my feelings scare you
I'm sorry if I have ever hurt you
I'm sorry if letting this out was a mistake
I'm so sorry for anything and everything
Don't try to tell me it's not my fault
I let this feeling get out of control
Maybe this really is all a mistake
But I cant take it back now...sorry....
I'll beg for forgiveness if I have to
Just please don't leave me
Unless it would make you happier to leave me
Than go ahead, leave I wont stop you
Maybe it would be better if you left
But that's not what I want...
If that's what you wish though, don't stay for the sake of me
Go whenever you feel you must
If you stay I want you to do something for me
Tell whenever I make you uncomfortable or scared
I'll stop the instant you tell me and never repeat my actions again
And I'm sorry if this is complicated in anyway...but this is just the way I feel
Every word I say to you is and will always be true
I would never dream of lying to you...
I know I can tell you everything and I most certainly always will
But I just want you to know you can do the same with me too

"By My Side"
I'm not going to cry anymore
You make all the pain go away
I like it here in your arms on the shore
And maybe we can be together one day
I'm not going to lie to you
You make everything so much better
These feeling are so brand new
But if you'd like I wont say it to your face but in a letter
I'm not going to hide anything
There's no point in hiding from you anymore
The first day I heard your voice my heart sang
And I promise that I will always be open, finally opening my door
I'm not going to die slowly today
You can save me, I know you can
Just find the will and the way
But don't work to hard to lend me a hand
You make all the tears go away
The pain doesn't exist when I'm with you
I promise you and myself that we can be together one day
Because that's what I'm supposed to do
You wont let me lie
And I understand it's better that way
You never have to ask why
Because with you there's nothing I wont say
You somehow found the key to my heart
I don't see the point in trying to hide
This is all a great new start
And I know you'll always be there when I fall and slide
You wont let me die
And if I let you, you're going to save me
I want you to find me, I want you to love me; I'm not going to lie
Because right now all I need is you by my side to see

"Not Ever"
Help me escape
I no longer want to move to this beat
So sing me the song from your heart by the lake
Together we can move our feet
Hold me closely
Make the fears go away
Love me the most
So than we can be together some day
There's a nightmare and it's waking me up inside
This thing inside me is coming to the surface
It almost feels like I have died
Like I'm the one now locked in the case
Don't let me fall
I want to dream of love; I want to dream of you
I'm tired of being a doll
But I'm not sure there's anything you can do
Just keep me from the darkness
Never let me go so I don't get last forever
On me leave your mark
Please don't leave; not now, not ever

"The Key"
Let me weep you this poem
That Heaven itself adores
For than I must forever roam
Behind this smile is a broken yet locked door
Let me pain you my soul
Waiting for your kiss to bring me to you
The pain of you not here is taking its toll
I would love to let my feelings show so true
Let me sing you the song from my heart
This has been locked up for so long
But I think it's time for a new start
It may be a bit rusty but really it's a beautiful song
Let me write you the thoughts in my mind
The feeling all locked up inside me
The words are not so easy to understand or find
Sorry but the door is once again locked; go find the key
You must weep me a poem
And maybe, yours too, Heaven itself will adore
You can follow me or forever roam
But one way or another you need to open your door
You must paint me your soul
Do you wait for my kiss to bring me to you?
Do you get pain when I'm not there that takes its toll?
For you are welcome to let your feeling show bright and true
You must sing me the song from your heart
Has yours been locked up for too long?
We both know we need a fresh start
Weather your song be old or new, it will always be a beautiful song
You must write me the thoughts in your mind
Whatever feeling you may kept locked inside yourself like me
I'll look everywhere for them if that's what I have to do to find
And if you decide to close your door, one way or another I'll find your key

"Tear"
Just let me die...
It would be the best thing for me
Than I would no longer have to lie
Maybe it's time to say good-bye...
But that's not what I want...
I don't want you to leave
For than me you would forever taunt
Yet I just cant find a reason to believe
Why did you give me false hopes my friend?
Wait that's wrong...I'm the one who put my faith in you...
I'm sorry...but I cant just sit here and pretend
In a way I want to but cant say we're through
It just hurts so much and I cant take it...
And I know you still care; that you still want me here
But I know my limitations...and it's time to quit
I promise you and myself that I wont cry a tear...
Oh how I don't want you to let me die
Don't believe me, it's not good for me
If you leave me that's when I'll have to lie
Please...don't say good-bye
It's true that's not what I want
I'll do anything, just don't leave
Or than you're memory would forever haunt
I want you to make me believe...
You didn't get me false hopes...it was my doing friend
It's true...I put everything into you
I cant fake it anymore, I'm letting you know and I wont pretend
I would never dream of saying that we're through...
Yes it hurts, and I cant take it...
But as long as you still care; as long as you still want me here
I cant stay...I really don't want to quit
And saying that I wont cry is a lie...for my broken heart will always shed it's tear

"As Long..."
As long as I have you by my side
As long as I don't have to let you go
As long as I can talk to you
As long as I can be your friend
As long as I can make memories with you...
I think I'll be okay
As long as you want me here
As long as you care about me
As long as you love me in your own way
As long as you promise me you'll stay
As long as you need me as much as I need you...
I know I'll be okay
But without you by my side
Having to let you go
Not talking to you
Not having you as a friend
Not making memories with you...
I don't think I'll be okay
And without you wanting me here
Without you caring about me
Without you loving me in your own way
Without your promise to me that you'll stay
Without you needing me as much as I need you...
I know I wont be okay

"I don't..."
I don't know how to let this go
I don't know why I keep holding on
I don't know why I keep waiting
I don't know how to let my feelings disappear
Do you want me to let you go?
Should I even bother to let my feelings show?
Why am I feeling so much woe?
Maybe I should have known...
Do you want me to keep holding on?
Should I stay to see another dawn?
Why do I feel like we're losing our bond?
I just need to escape; go to our special pond
Do you want me to keep on waiting?
Should I even bother saying it's too late?
Why do I have a feeling meeting you was fate?
I'm still trying to open up your gate
Do you want my feelings to disappear?
Should I stop hoping one day you'll be there when I look in the mirror?
Why do I still want you to be here?
Somehow I still find the need for you to be near
I don't want to let this go
And I hope you don't want that ever
You really should know
I want to be with you forever
I want to keep holding on
And I never want you to let me go
Because with you here I wont have to leave, be gone
Than maybe someday I can really let this feeling show
I'm willing to keep waiting
And I hope you are too
Because you always come, you're never late
I really do need you
I don't want my feelings to disappear
And I don't want your to fade
All I want is you to be here
I think your the reason I was made...
Please don't let this go...
I'm begging you, keep holding on
Just keep on waiting
Promise me you wont let your feelings disappear

"Never Say"
Seeing your face while you sleep is a wonderful sight
It bring me peace inside
In this darkness you are my light
I just wish I could have you forever by my side
Feeling your arms around me makes me feel safe and secure
Your warmth keeps me from growing cold this winter night
But I will always want more...
Please don't ever let go; forever hold me tight
Hearing you whisper in my ear sends a shiver down my spine
Every word you say has so much meaning
I wish to be your and for you to be mine
You're the most amazing thing I've ever heard or seen
All these thought run through my head
I just wish they were real...and no matter how I try I cant keep them at bay
I know with you here, you wont ever let me be dead
But there's just so much I can never say...


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