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"End of the Show"
You send me a note
I don't answer it...
You re-write what you wrote
I'm trying to forget you...every little bit
You call me
I don't pick up the phone
Why cant you see?
I just want to be left alone...
You tell me to call you
I don't want to talk...
Sorry but it's true..
Stop watching me like a hawk
You tell me to get on with me life
What the hell do you know?
You don't know anything about this strife
I never thought you would steep so low...
I'm sick and tired of you...
Get away from me!
It's over, we're through!
Now, for the love it just let me be!
Stop calling me!
I'm never going to pick up my phone
Now can you see?
You ARE going to leave me alone
Stop telling me what to do!
Never again will we talk
Get over it, because it's true
The time's come to say good-bye to the hawk
Don't you dare tell me what to do with my life!
You don't understand, you don't know
You could never understand this strife...
It was fun while it lasted, but it's the end of the show
"Decide"
I have to fight back the tears
Have to fight to put on this smile
I have to pretend not to fear
Have to pretend I'm not living in denial
I'm not worried about how this will affect me
I'm worried about you
Soon I wont be able to see
Don't think you should have knew
The mask has just come off for good
Now it's time for my end
It's going to happen sooner or later, you know it would
But know this, I will always miss you my friend
No more fighting
No more pretending
I'm giving up tonight
Don't waste your time trying to save me my friend
I'm sorry...I know how this will hurt you
But this is going to hurt me more
My love for you was and always will be true
Now I muse decide if I really want to lose you and forever close my door
"War"
My heart tells me one thing
My mind screams another
I don't know which one to listen to
I just cant decide
My heart tells me to stay
I cant leave him...
I love him more and more everyday
I would hate myself so much if he was hurt because of me
My mind screams for me to go
I almost want to listen...
But if I go I'll never know
I cant just sit here and keep on wishing
I'm so confused...
I don't know what to do
Should I listen to my mind?
Or should I follow my heart and stay for you?
I cant take this...
I'm making my decision today, I'm not taking this anymore
I'm tired of this s**t
Today I'll end this war
"Nothing at all"
What's wrong with me?
Why cant I do anything right?
Do I always have to let people down?
How come I always hurt people?
As you once said, everything's wrong with me
Not one thing about me is even OKAY, not one damn thing
I curse, I yell, I cry...sorry I have emotion
I'm not going to be like everyone else, I'm just going to be me
I always ******** things up don't I?
Just say it to my face, I can take it
Do you think I wanted her to die?
Well, it hurt me more than it could have ever hurt you...
Go ahead, scream at me, blame me...i don't give a s**t
What's the point in trying right?
I'll always be a failure, or so you say
I'm not as smart as him, not as talented as her...but I am me
And I really am trying...now isn't that what you said you wanted?
Oh wait...that was just what I wished for...
You think I enjoy hurting people?
I hate myself for it...I really do
I desearve to go die in a ******** hole or something...
And I know you would agree though everyone else would tell me it's not true...
I just wish you would think of me differently....yeah you
Think that not everything's wrong with me...
yeah I know I'm not perfect...but cant you see the good I hold within?
Maybe you could see that I don't always ******** things up...
I mess them up mostly when you're around...but that's just because I'm trying to prove to you I'm worth something
Do you know I never wanted to let you down?
But I did...and I'll never forgive myself...I just wish you could finally see the way I feel..see that I miss her
Maybe you could understand that I never meant to hurt you
I never meant to hurt anyone...open your eyes and see me for what I am not for what you want me to be...
See that I'm an individual and that you wont be able to change that
It doesn't mean something's wrong with me though
See that I don't intend to ******** things up, I just do
But know I do a lot of good things too
See that I don't want to be a let down
This is my best though, and if it's not enough I really am sorry
See that I hate myself for hurting you...hurting her
And know that all I really want is your forgiveness
Most of all I just want you to know...I want you to see
That I love you...even though you've hurt me time and time again
It's okay if you think badly of me, you have a right
Just know I'm sorry and I'm going to try my best to get you back
Because without your acceptance I am nothing...nothing at all
"Here"
I hear the pounding of your heart
I feel your lips on my lips and skin
I see you when I close my eyes
So why aren't you here?
Is the pounding of your heart just my heart longing for yours?
I long to hear it...thump thump....over and over again
Everyday I want it more and more
And I'm afraid my heart's going to give in
Why can I feel you on my lips, on my skin?
You're not here, you're so far away
I look for you in my sheets...and i know wanting you here is a sin
But I'll always want it and I'll be waiting for that someday
Is this image of you fake or real?
I toss and turn at night wishing to find you next to me
Than I wouldn't be so alone...I could be able to really feel
Yet still, I doubt we'll ever be
I just want you to be my shoulder to cry on
Of course I'll always want you to be more...I'll always love you
But as long as you're my friend I'll see another dawn
Because I would never make you do what you no longer want to
"Make it"
Can you tell me why I should open my eyes?
Nothing ever changes...
I'm sick of seeing all the fakes, telling all the lies
I don't think I can bare to see anything more
Why do I have to hurt myself?
Is it my only hope?
I'm afraid there's nothing left
So lost and I cant find a way to cope
Did I really lose myself in the pain?
Try and save me, there's no point really
In the darkness there's nothing to loss but everything to gain
Please, don't try to be witty
Where's my heart?
Do you have one of the broken pieces?
Please give it back, you've left you mark
But promise to stay with me...please?
I know you can give me a reason to once again open my eyes
You don't even have to speak, just seeing you is reason enough
You might not be able to tell me why I hurt myself
But you can stop me, I know you can
You can see what I really lost in my pain
Than you can help me build myself back up
I know you have my heart
And one more things I know, you've given me a reason to make it
"Trust"
You don't understand how difficult this is
You say I'm just being too damn stubborn
And who knows, you just might be right
But just so you know, it's not that easy
You know this isn't as easy as 1, 2, 3
Sorry hun, but that's not how I work
Only after time and hard effort can I open that door
If only you could see these walls from my eyes
Try to understand how hard this really is
This is much more than me just being too damn stubborn
So you're only half way right
Now can you see it's just not that easy?
Think again because this isn't going to happen in 1, 2, 3
Give me time alone, let me do my work
It's going to be a long hard struggle, but I'll open that door
I think you finally see these walls from my eyes
I know you've been waiting and I'm sorry I cant move faster
But I'm working as fast as I can, and this really is my best
Understand I love you and I don't want to let me down
But you have to understand that I cant do this alone
I need you to understand
I need you to help me knock down these walls
I need you to see that this isn't easy
I need you to see these walls the way I do
Than you'll finally get what you want
You already have my heart in yours
You have my life in your hands
And soon you'll have my trust to use as you will
Just be patient please....
"Only"
I don't understand...
How do you make me hear these things?
How do you get me to open up?
How do you make me see the things I do?
How do you get me to feel this way?
If I listen close enough...
I can hear the wind whispering to me
I can hear the wolves sing our song as they howl
I can hear the waves calling your name
If I open up enough...
You can see how torn apart I am
You can see how much fear I hold within
You can see how I'm barely alive
If I look close enough...
I can see the trees dancing as the wind whispers
I can see the moon laughing as the wolves sing our song
I can see the ocean reaching for me and the waves call your name
If I let my emotions take over me...
You can hear the wind whispering in your ear
You can hear the wolves singing our song as they howl
You can hear the waves calling my name
I'm here to listen to you
And I'm willing to open up as long as you don't hurt me
I'm here to look after you
And I'm willing to let my emotions take over me but...
Only if you will listen to me
And only if you're willing to open up
Only if you look after me
And only if you're willing to let your emotions take over you
 miroku fan 101 · Thu Jan 29, 2009 @ 04:17am · 0 Comments |
