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Love, Honesty, and Destiny
Poems(sorry I haven't uploaded any new ones in awhile)
"Meet"
He pretends he's fine
But he's way over the line
He's not fooling anyone with his act
We all know you're what he lacks
The moon shone on his face
You just laughed and left him in that place
It broke his heart
An added collection to his broken parts
He has give up on all that matters
You let his heart shatter
If you listen you can still hear a beat
I don't want to lose you; if I do I hope one day soon we'll meet
One more day
Only one more thing to say
I whisper in your ear "I love you too"
And I just pray that I don't lose you
"Wrong"
Stroking your hair softly as it blows in the wind
I never wanted to hurt you
I'm the one who has committed the sin
Maybe one day you'll know what I knew
Bracing you in a hug so tight
I wish I didn't have to let you go
One day you'll shine so bright
That's why I cant let my pain show
Hurting so bad on this cold night
Trying to keep my sanity with strength I can find
I fear that soon I may lose my sight
Maybe I really am losing my mind
It's time to let all hell break lose now
I don't want to live if living is without you
But don't worry before I leave I'll take a bow
We'll always be connected; whole as two
You don't want me
I've lost you; my other half
Now that I've lost everything, I don't want to see
Once I'm gone I'll bet you'll just laugh
I still love you my dark angel
Even if you love me no longer
When they fine me they'll see how I dangle
No one knew what I knew but now I know I was so wrong
"Ink"
Head pounding in pain
Heart screaming out
Lately I've been questioning how I've stayed sane
All I really want to do is cry and shout
I'm so tired of trying
Sp tired of holding on
When all I really want to do is try flying
Don't try to stop me if you see me at dawn
This is really it...
Can this really be the end?
Well I sure am tired of this s**t
Not really sure if my heart will ever mend
It's time to let go
Let me choose to go or stay
When I decide I'll let you know
If you need me I'll be at the bay
I really need to think
Or maybe I need to be stopped
But no body can stop this thing from killing me; no one can stop this ink
Maybe once I'm dead I'll be on top
"Walk Away"
Can this be right?
No it cant. . .cant be right at all
Am I really losing my light?
Now I wonder if I was just your doll
Is this really happening?
Well I'm actually not sure. . .
Did you really rip my heart in two like an already ripped napkin?
So much for being pure
Did you ever need me?
I'm really starting to question all we've been through
Are you really going to leave and let me be?
Somehow I'm not surprised with you
I guess this is right
Yes, it's sure this time
I really did lose my light
I guess you're no longer mine
It really happened
I'm 100% sure
You ripped my heart in two like an already ripped napkin
I just noticed how much you were never pure
Now I know you never needed me
I guess this meant nothing to you
You just left and let me be
But listen closely because as you walk away I whisper "I love you too"
"Long"
I miss you
Miss the things we used to do
Miss the person I thought I knew
Where did you go?
I was the first to know
The first to take the blow
I still need your love
Need you to give me those little shoves
Need you to be my saving dove
What did I do?
Do to make you shew
To make you act like you should have knew
You miss me, I see it in your eyes
That's where you hide all the lies
That's where you want to die
Now I know where you went
You didn't leave, you were sent
Just know what I said I meant
You need me to love you too
You need me like I need you
Please tell me you're not going to shew
Now I see I didn't do anything wrong
We still have our song
But I know that I still have to wait; this is going to be long
"Knock, Knock, Knock"
I hear
knock
knock
knock

It's you my dear
so I
walk
walk
walk

For awhile we just
talk
talk
talk
I know we mustn't
sulk
sulk
sulk

We have to go
away
away
away
All I feel is woe
on this dark
day
day
day
"Let me go"
Music take me away
Some other place, some other day
Help me find a way
For once to just be okay
Play the notes I need to hear
Bringing death oh so near
Don't even bother to shed a tear
I know you wont think of missing me dear
Sing me your song so soft and light
It brings me comfort as I die this night
Let me go do not fight
I'll disappear like in the sky a kite
I hope the music will take you away
Maybe back to the old days
Help you hold on and find a way
Than maybe you too will be okay
I'll play the notes you need to hear
But I'm playing them to keep death at bay and me near
Even though you have not I will cry tears
I miss you so very much dear
Singing you your song so dark yet light
Maybe it will bring you comfort as I leave you tonight
I have lost you, lost this fight
Please let me go; you cant hold on to a flying away kite
"Death"
You saw me in agony
What did you do?
Laugh
You heard my screams
How did you ignore them?
The bloody murder of screams so loud
Go ahead, laugh
I'll be fine
Ignore me
I'll just disappear
I'll look down at you and laugh
We'll see who's in agony now
I'll make sure you're ignored
I cant wait to hear your bloody screams
Maybe I'll forgive you
Maybe you'll say sorry
Or maybe you want me to die
Maybe that's the way it should be
I'll be the dark angel crying in the night
You'll be the devil making me scream so loud
We'll fight until the end
In this dance will be the battle of death
"Face of an angel"
Let me find who I am
Stop trying to make me your clone
To tell you the truth I don't give a damn
This is getting under my skin; rotting my bones
For the love of it, let me go!
You said you didn't want me so here's your wish
Don't pretend like you know
In a way I guess I'll find a way to miss this
All the good times when we we happy
All the bad time when we got into fights
Man I'm getting too sappy!
Just so you know it ends tonight
Nothing to hold onto
Nothing to feel anymore
Don't say I should've knew
You're the one who slammed the door
I'm no good for you
But I'm in pain without your love
This is something I must do
I'm letting you leave, giving you a little shove
Don't look back on this
Forget me...
Trust me you wont regret it
But without you I can no longer bare to be
I'll let the knife dance on my skin
This pain is so much better than the pain you make me feel
Tonight I let the voices win
It doesn't hurt so it cant be real
I fall to the ground
Crimson all around me
I'll be good; I promise not to make a sound
The light starts to fade and the face of an angel is all I see
"Cure?"
Breaking
my heart
apart

Shaking
my hands
reaching for you
in that land

Making
my mind
unwind
the thoughts
of you

Waking
my soul
than maybe
it'll disappear
...this hole

Taking
my words
and letting them fly away
just like the birds

Is your heart breaking?
Is it falling apart?

Are your hands shaking?
Reaching for me in this land?

Is your mind making?
Unwinding the thoughts of me?

Is your soul waking?
Is your hole disappearing?

Are you taking your words?
And letting them fly away like birds?

Because I know one thing's for sure
All of those things are happening to me...
But I do need to ask...is there a cure?
"True"
Laying down never to awake again
I must say that was one hell of a game
I ask "Will I get to see you again?" but then know there wont be a when
Yet I don't have any shame
I have to say I did more than I had ever expected
Never thought I'd get this far
Just wondering if you were affected
If I helped become who you are
I know one thing; I failed you
Don't try to tell my that I didn't
You really should've ended it, said we were through
But no you couldn't do that, not even a hint
You don't know how much that hurt
I'm not saying that I didn't deserve that
Well that's why I'm going to the dirt
In return I made you're heart go splat
I didn't mean to hurt you
In my distress I lashed out
But know that my love for you was true
Please do not doubt
And when I go down into Earth
Promise me you'll keep on living
Trust me, you may not think so but you have worth
You're oh so giving
You gave me your heart when I needed love
You showed me how much I really meant
You became my saving dove
But than one day you just got up and went
That's when I saw how much I wasn't loved
When I realized that I never meant anything to you
I now see how much I was unloved
But let me ask you this...was your love ever true?
"Falling Apart"
I'm falling apart
Just like the pieces of my heart
I cant think straight
All because I lost my mate
What did I do wrong?
All in all the deed is done
I wish with all my heart I would redo what happened
But really it's okay, just keep on laughing
Laughing, that's all they ever do
It's really annoying actually
Them laughing at me and you
But I'll let it go, let them bully
Soon I'll be gone
I'm sorry if that hurts you
If it does come visit me at dawn
Then maybe you can stop me from what I'm going to do
Don't tell me you're falling apart...
Just tell me I didn't break your heart
Please tell me you can think straight
It couldn't have messed you up as much as me to lose your mate
You didn't do anything wrong!
It's my fault, but what's done is done
Don't try to tell me that's not what happened
Or than you might not be laughing
There's nothing you can do
We shouldn't have been together actually
I shouldn't have been with you
Don't make me look at them bully
You cant be gone...
Don't say what hurts me hurts you
Please run, hurry up it's almost dawn
But the truth is...
you cant stop me and I cant stop you...
from doing what we have to do


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