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"If you..."
If you pulled up my sleeves...
you would see the pattern of my cuts
those are for everytime someone leaves...
If you looked at me...
you would see the bruises
those are for trying to flee...
If you looked at my eyes...
you would see the pain I hold inside
this is for everytime they lied...
If you looked at my hands...
you would see them shaking in fear
this is for all their demands...
If you looked at my heart...
you would see how broken and torn it is
this is for all the times they broke me apart...
That's why I wear long sleeves...
so you wont have to see the cuts
I don't want you to leave...
That's why I don't let you look at me...
so you wont have to look at the bruises
I don't want you to flee...
That's why I don't look you in the eyes...
so you wont have to see the pain that's inside
I don't want to lie...
That's why I don't hold your hands....
so you wont see mine shaking in fear
please don't demand...
That's why I won't give you my heart...
so you don't have to look at how broken and torn it is
I don't want you to break it apart...
If you looked into my soul so true
you would see a scared little girl trying to let you in
because I love you...
"Stop it"
I hear them yelling...
it's giving me a headache
I think this is my final farewell
I feel them pulling me away...
it's making me ache more
Why do they have to stay?
I see their eyes...
why are they looking at me like that?
It's not like I told them all lies...
I cant even hear myself anymore...
my mind is lost within itself
why cant you leave me alone on this shore?
I already lost myself...
why wont you let me search?
just worry about yourself
I cant hold your stares...
they're burning through my core
and now I can barely breathe the air...
STOP YELLING AT ME
STOP PULLING AT ME
STOP LOOKING AT ME
STOP IT! STOP IT! STOP IT!
please?
"I love thee"
My fingers move across the keys
Your voice sings along with the notes
I close my eyes so I can see
This melody makes me feel like I'm floating
Soft, than loud
Slow, than fast
You sing aloud
I wish this moment would last
High, than low
It's slowing down, but than picks up pace
Through the music I am able to show
How much I love your angel like face
The song's coming to an end
You just smile at me
You are forever my friend
I will always love thee
My fingers still move across the keys
I faintly hear you sing along with the notes
But when I look around you I do not see
This melody takes me away, until, with you, I'm floating
Soft, than loud in my ears
Slow, than fast to the beat
I now sing allowed
I just wish that moment would have lasted....
High, than low is the sound
It slows down, but than picks up the pace like my broken heart
Through the music I am able to show
How hurt I am...how I'm falling apart
Your song has come to an end...
I still see you smiling at me
You are still my friend
And no matter what I will love thee
"Tears"
The rain is falling down
And so you turn on this melody so true
Spreading on your lips slowly is a frown
And as you cry I hold you
You look up at me with sad eyes
It just makes me hug you tighter
My angel, why do you cry?
The tears seem to be getting lighter
I rock you side to side
And I sing you a little song
You look outside
And I can feel something's wrong
You hug me tightly while sobbing onto my shoulder
I stroke your hair and whisper in you ear
Every second you seem to get colder...
But just know I'm always here to wipe away the tears
The rain is still falling down
And so I turn on this melody so true
Spreading on my lips slowly is a frown
And no one's here to hold me as I cry for you
I look around with sad eyes
But no one's here to hug me tighter
For you my angel, I cry
But my tears aren't getting any lighter
No one will rock me side to side
And somehow I still manage to sing a little song
I look outside
I knew something was wrong...
I want someone to hug tightly while I cry on their shoulder
Someone to stroke my hair and whisper in my ear
Every second I seem to get colder...
But, love, know I'm still here to wipe away your tears
"From the start"
I wonder what I am to you
How I help you...
I wonder why you care
Why you love me the way you do...
So tell me...what am I to you?
Am I a puppet?
Am I just a toy?
Or do I actually mean something to you?
How do I help you?
Or do I not help?
DO I just bring you down?
Please tell me what's true...
Enlighten me, why do you care?
Do you protect me just so you can use me later?
DO you save me just to destroy me?
Or do you actually want to take away the pain I bare?
Why do you love me the way you do?
Do you do it just to toy with my heart?
DO you love me for pure amusement of my torture?
Or have you truely loved me from the start?
What are you to me?
Not a puppet, not a toy
But a boy with a heart and soul
You mean everything to me
How do you help me?
Don't you dare think you don't help
That you just bring me down
Because you're there to listen and tell me the truth
Why do I care?
I want to protect you so you don't get harmed
I want to save you so you don't have get destroyed
I truly wish to take away all the pain you bare
Why do I love you the way I do?
Believe me, I'm not toying with your heart
I don't do this for your torture
But because I have truly loved you from the start
"Care"
Where am I?
All I see is the darkness...
Is this what it's like to die?
Oh right, I'm alone in the park...
Where are you?
I look everywhere, but you're no where
Is there nothing more I can do?
Now I question if you ever really cared...
I'm starting to like it here
It's dark and there's no strife
I wish to die so I can be with you dear
No one can wake me up to this damned life
I'm starting to give up on this
There's no point in looking if you're no where
There's nothing I can do, but know you I sincerely miss
And I'm leaving tonight because...I still care
"Doll"
Head tilted to the side
Broken pieces lay around me
Some are small and narrow, others big and wide
Either way I still cant see...
Hands picking up the pieces so slow
Blood flows out of the cuts, the crimson covers the floor
Not ever trying to stop the flow
Why try when there will only be more?
Heart getting put back in place
Yet my hands are covered in crimson blood
Curled up, and crying, I close my eyes and see your face
It starts to rain, yet I still lay in the mud
Feet pounding on the ground
I look behind me and you're not there
But when I look ahead you're there and I cant make a sound
You smile at me and give me that stare
I am your broken doll...
I don't know why I even try to fix it, you'll just end up breaking my heart
You wont catch me when I fall...
You have used me from the start
(But I still love you..though I don't know why I still do...)
"Me..."
They point and laugh
Not caring how you feel
They push and shove
But they don't know that these wounds wont heal
Go ahead, put me down
One day you'll be sorry about this
And when you're on the ground
I wont give a s**t
Try and hold me back today
But sooner or later I'll break free
There's nothing you can do or say
Because you cant stop me from being me
"My Heart"
You don't have to care
But you do
You don't have to love me
Yet you choose to
You protect me from the dark
Save me from myself
You comfort me when I'm in pain
Heal this broken heart
You show me the way
Wipe away all my tears
You always have something to say
Fight away my fears
I will always care
Even though that's something I don't have to do
I will always love you
Even though I don't have to
I want to protect you from the dark
Save you from yourself
I'm here to comfort you when you're in pain
Heal anything that's broken apart
I want to show you the way
Wipe away all your tears
I'll always have something to say
Be here to fight away your fears
I hope I can help you as much as you help me
Without you I just couldn't be
I've loved you more than anything from the start
I've let you in, please don't destroy my heart
"You.."
You tell me to dress like you
I'll dress the way I want
You tell me to do the things you do
Go ahead, taunt me
You're words don't get through to me
I don't care what you want to see
I'm never going to be what you want me to be
All I'm going to be is me
Don't tell me what to do or say
I'm not you're puppet
I'll be free one day
Until than I'll try and take your s**t
I wont be like you
Because I don't need to fit in
There's nothing I will do
Because I'm not going to give in to your sin
Do what ever you wish
Say what ever you have to
I never wanted this
And I have and will always hate you
 miroku fan 101 · Wed Jan 21, 2009 @ 12:55am · 0 Comments |
