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Love, Honesty, and Destiny
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"Intact"
You showed me what it's like to cry
You showed me how to feel
You made me feel as if I died
You made me feel things not fake, but oh so real
I miss staying up all night
I miss your hugs
I miss you so much it's hard to write
I miss singing the songs we sung
It's lonely without you by my side
I feel hallow everywhere I go
All I want to do is curl up in a ball and hide
But I cant or people would see my woe
I wont cry
But I wont smile
I wont ask why
So you don't think I'm living in denial
I know he's gone
And how he's never coming back
Don't make the pain worse; don't sing that song
But go ahead, find a way to break this already broken heart that's no long intact

"The Tide"
Open your eyes so you can see
How much we were meant to be
Open your heart so you can feel
Than maybe you'll know all of this is real
I wish this wasn't so hard
But it's not so, I'll keep up my guard
I wish you would understand
That you're so easy to lose like sand
Maybe one day the tears will stop raining from my eyes
Hopefully one day you'll realize
That you are my on and only love from now until forever
And the day wont come when that will stop, never
Please just love me
Without you I cant be
hold me in your arms and never let go
Than I'll never again have to feel this woe
But as nice as dreams can be this one isn't coming true
I know what's wrong and it's you
You're what I want so much but can never have by my side
So as I sit here as the rain falls down, I slowly escape into the tide

"Truth"
What would you do if I died?
I bet you wouldn't even miss me...
What would you do if I cried?
I bet you would pretend you didn't see
What would I do if you died?
After everything I would still miss you
What would II do if you cried?
I would hold you close and tell you what's true
Where would you be without me by your side?
I bet you would be just fine
Where would you be if everything I told you was a lie?
I bet you wouldn't be bothered...you would still shine
Where would I be without you by my side?
I would be forever lost
Where would I be if everything you told me was a lie?
I would be doing what I am now...asking myself why
Why did you let this happen to me?
Why did you walk away and let this be?
Why did you leave me here all alone?
Why did you let your heart turn to stone?
You let his happen because you didn't care
You walked away because I was too much to bare
You left me all alone because I wasn't good enough you
You let your heart turn to stone because you loved me but didn't tell me the truth
I still care
I still wonder, if your out there, where?
I know I will never be good enough for you
I just want to know why you couldn't tell me the truth

"Frown"
I need to talk to you
I go insane if I don't hear your voice
I wish you knew
But telling you is the only way;the only choice
You're so much wiser
You're so care free
You give the truth never lies
But no matter how I ask you wont tell me
I don't expect you to feel the same
I just want you to know how I feel about you
Don't worry, I'll take all the blame
But this is something I must do
You say you care
You say you'll help me
You shouldn't even dare
But for some reason I want to see what you see
I care about you so much
I think I might even love you
I wish I could feel your touch
But just know that these feelings for you are true
You wont let me fall
And I wont let you down
You can break down this walls
And if I have you I'll never frown

"Wink"
I love thee
But you love her
I wonder why it cant be me
But maybe it would be better if i was ignored
You're so much better off without me
I bet you wish we had never met
And even though you may feel that way I hope you see
You stop the tears and if you go my face will get wet
I'm not even sure why you wish to be my friend
All I really do it bring you down
You told that you would be here for me until the end
And you're keeping your promise while at the same time not letting me frown
You're beautiful in your own ways
But if you were here right now what would it be like?
Until I see you I'll count the days
I wonder what you feel like
What's it like to have someone love you when you don't love them?
Does it bring you pain to see me in sorrow?
Is it making you die like when you break a stem?
Does it make you wonder why you live to see tomorrow?
I'm curious to know what my feelings make you think
But if I cause you sorrow I'll be gone in a blink
I don't want you to die; fall into the blackness and sink
But before I leave you to live tomorrow, I'll give you a good-bye wink

"Allow"
I sit by the phone waiting for your call
But I know I'll never get one...
I just lay here waiting for you to pick me up; your doll
But I know I'll have to give up, let it be done...
I care about you so much
But you only care about her
I'll keep quite and such
So my feelings for you will never be sure
It's better this way...
But somehow I still want you to know
I wish that I could tell you today
But I will never let my feelings show
I'll let them eat me alive
But I'll never let you see
I'll pretend that I can survive
But really without you I could never be
From the day I met you, you showed me the light
But what have I done for you?
All I ever wanted was for you to hold me tight
But you will never know all these thing I feel are true
Forever I will lock my heart away
It doesn't matter how I feel
As long as you're my friend; as long as you stay
Things will be fine...but this is so unreal
I cant keep on going lying to you like this
I've always told you the truth and I cant lie now
Just so you know, right now I want your kiss
Letting you scratch the surface of my emotions is all I will allow

"Alone..."
I don't know what to do
I don't know where to go
All I know is I want you
But since I cant have that I'm in woe
You don't want me and my feelings
You just want me to leave
You promised you would always be here; that was the deal
But that promise I can no longer believe
I only wanted you to know
I couldn't even do that
I really should go
But I need the darkness just like a bat
You need to find some way
You have to open this door to my heart; this cold stone
Than maybe you can find me one day
But without you here with me I am so alone...

"Mirror"
Please don't push me away
I cant take it
Is there nothing I can say?
Maybe I just don't have the wit
Even if you don't think so, I miss you
Go ahead, don't believe me
But if you ever need me I'll be right here to help you through
Because you have always helped me see
Please I'm begging don't let go...
I like it right here in your arms
You bring my comfort and it shows
But if I must I'll leave so I don't being you any harm
As quickly as you come you leave
That's when my smiles turn into tears
It's becoming to hard to believe
Maybe one day you'll be beside me when I look in the mirror

"Find"
I don't understand why you care so much
I'm just glad you do
Ever since we've met, on me, you've had a clutch
And for some reason or another that doesn't bother you
Please believe me when I say I care
Without you I don't know where I'd be
Trust me, I wish I was there
You work your magic oh so well on me
You understand when no one else does
You comfort me when I'm in pain
You make me smile just because
And if you where here, I bet you'd wipe away the tears I cry like rain
I mean a lot to you and I don't know why
But you mean so much to me too so I don't mind
I love you, I'm not going to lie
And know when I'm lost, me, you will always find


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