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Love, Honesty, and Destiny
poems
"Town"
The ground falls out from under me
I don't understand why this is happening
Every thing's black; I cant see
I'm listening for a sound but all I hear is tapping

I look at your face once more
Then I gently kiss your cold cheek
I turn around and walk out the door
That's when my eyes begin to leak

As the day creeps closer to me
I know what I have to do
I'm not the only one to pay the fee
Sadly this day would come I knew

I walk in dressed in black
That's when I see you in the coffin laying down
I stare at it still thinking somethings out of whack
This is my last day in this hell of a town
((I went to the hospital to visit him, but when I went into his room he was already gone. I kissed him on the cheek, and walked out of the room crying. I couldn't bare to look at him longer then I had to. It just caused my heart more pain. He was wearing his famous smile. He was smiling when he took his last breath. He used to always smile at me with that smile...The funeral is next weekend...I miss him already. If this pain doesn't kill me...well then i don't know what will kill me.))

"Lies"
You did it again
You lied
You told me you would be there
You make me want to die

I cant believe I fell for it again
I fell for your games
Oh how foolish I am
I'm filled to the brink with shame

You told me again
You weren't leaving
You made me believe it
I'm stuck in between the lies you weave

I want to give in
I don't want to believe today
Understand what you've done
But it's time to walk away
((I fell for your lies again. I bought into every word you told me again. I knew better. I knew you would hurt me again. So why cant I let this go? Why cant I walk away? Well it ends today. I don't need this pain anymore. I'm walking away...))

"Go Away"
Go away
Cant you see you've won?
Go away
The damage is already done

Did you think...
you're words wouldn't make me sad?
Did you think...
that i wasn't going to be mad?

You're wrong
I'm hurt beyond repair
You're wrong
I no longer want to share

Go away
Cant you see you're not needed anymore?
Go away
those are the words you said as you slammed the door
((this is for you bonnie...this is what u did...the damage is done and it cant be fixed i hope ur happy with what you've done to me...))

"Lie?"
As the phone rings I freeze
Is it you?
I'm up against a not so easy breeze
What should I do?

I see a message from you
Is this how it's meant to be be?
I slowly open it because you told me to
Should I not be able to see?

I read the words you wrote slowly
What are you saying?
You're letting your feelings show
Should I believe what you say?

You say you love me
That you couldn't love without me by your side
Do you really need me to see?
Or is this just another lie?
((My love has told me some things and I'm not sure if the words he said are a lie or not...so it inspired me to write this poem. Hope you like it))

"This Way"
Do I know you?
Do you know me?
Is there something I should do?
Or can you already see?

Understand we're better off this way
Don't worry, this is all my fault
This was just something I had to say
My feelings are closed off like a volt
((just my feelings at the moment))

"Help"
I hear the screaming from downstairs
Will it ever go away?
I want this pain and misery to end
Can I really last another day?

Day in, day out
Will this life of mine ever change?
I'm waiting for you both to stop
Can I ever get in the good range?

I need someone to help me
Will I ever find someone willing to help?
I want someone to love me
Or will I always have to whelp?
((just what's happening right now. needed to let off some steam and this is where it went. hope u enjoy))

"Complete"
Open your eyes
Open you heart
Open your mouth
Open you ears

Don't look beyond your sight
Don't feel without knowing the truth
Don't speak until you know what to say
Don't listen if you wont remember

Can you look at what's in front of you?
Can you feel once you understand?
Can you speak once you have an idea in you head?
Can you listen once you learn to remember?

Understand that you must see clearly to see what's in front of you
Understand you must feel with all that you have to understand at all
Understand that you cant just have an idea to speak it has to be a good idea
Understand that to be a good listener you have to do more the just remember

Do you understand what I'm saying?
Will you ever understand what I'm saying?
See me with eyes so clear
Feel me in your heart so pure
Speak to me you thoughtful ideas.
Listen to me with you understanding ears

Once you do this I will trust you
I will love you
I will see you
Feel you
Hear you
And know you hear me
Once I fine one person to do that I will be complete
((I'm not sure if it really goes under that category but oh well. this was just thoughts going through my head and i thought it'd make a decent poem(or whatever it is) so i wrote it down. hope you like it))

"Warned"
Can you see the pain in my eyes?
Can you feel the agony in my heart?
Can you hear the feat in my voice?
Can you speak when you know these ears will no longer listen?

Do you want to know why there's pain in my eyes?
It's because they only sparkled for him, they only see him and no one else. He never left my side so I had no reason to be in pain. Now he's gone and all you can see is the pain I bare behind these eyes.

Do you want to know why agony is laying deep in my heart?
It's because all my happiness was taken away in mere seconds. Every joy in life, every laugh, every smile, EVERYTHING was taken away. All of it replaced with agony.

Do you know why you hear defeat in my voice?
It's because I've given up. There's no more hope for me. Not on reason to stay. But no matter how hard or how long I try I can never move on. He will always haunt me.

Now it's your turn to speak
Just know that these ear can no longer listen.
After you said those five words I could no longer hear anything but his voice
I could no longer see anything but his face
I could no longer feel anything but pure agony in my heart
I could no longer speak without knowing all hope was lost

So go ahead and speak once again
Just know you have been warned
((not sure about this one really...just all my bottled up emotion and thoughts. i needed to get them out somehow and this is how i do it. hope u enjoy))

"The end"
Some things should be kept a secret
Others should be told
Still not everything will heard
So remember to say it quite bold

Don't let others tell you you're wrong
Normally wrong ideas are the best
But never take something to far
Or you'll end up with less

Hold on to you dreams; Hold on to your thoughts
If you think it's right then there's no way it's wrong
As long as you have happiness in life what else matters?
The end is always most important in this song
((just some random thoughts mixed together. I think it turned out ok. hope you enjoy my thoughts))

"Obey"
Can you hear them?
They whisper in your ear at night
Can you see those men?
They wont let you out of their sight

I can hear them
They whisper to me
I can see those men
What else would I see?

I've heard them all my life
What's so weird about that?
I've seen them carry a knife
What's so wrong with being out of whack?

They tell me to do things I don't want to
But no matter how I try I always obey
They show me how to do what i was told to do
Maybe one day I'll stand up and have something to say
((...just thoughts in my head...i needed to get them out...so here they are.))


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