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Why do i miss you so much?you hurt me so many times and everytime you hurt me it hurt more and more.yet even when i was in pain i still thought of you.i couldn't stop myself from thinking of you and wanting to see you.now that your gone though i'm in more pain then ever before.my heart, mind, and soul are all in pain because they all want you more then anything and they want you more and more each day.which makes the pain hurt even worse ever day.no matter how big or how bad the pain is though i never stop thinking about you, dreaming about you ,and miss you.i will never forget you or the pain you made me go through even though i want to.maybe i just cant forget you no matter what i do or how great the pain is.or maybe i just dont want to forget you or the pain because i want you back so much and even if i got you back you would probably think you were causing me too much pain.i can get used to the pain.but i'll never get used to the pain until you come back and make me really feel pain agian.so until you come back i'll be in and hurt everyday more and more and never get used to the pain unless you make me feel real pain.so i'll wait in pain alone for you.even if it takes you forever to come back to me.

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my friend, and my love you have left me in complete emtyness.never to see you again, never to hear you again nad never to feel your warm touch again.i want to see you again, i want to hear your sweet voice again, i want to feel your warm touch again but most of all i just want to be with you again.

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good friend of mine, good friend of mind you're right beside me, so why do you feel far away?i love you so much but you just think of me as a friend.i want to tell you so much but i'll keep quit so i dont scare you.i'll love you secretly, i'll admire you secretly, but once i'm brave enough i'll tell you everything.just be patient until then good friend of mine.

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i feel your warm touch for the last time as you hug me good-bye.i hear you sweet vocie for the last time as you tell me good-bye.i sse you sad eyes when your looking at me in the eye.i want to cry, but i dont want you to see how much pain i'm in.if you do then you might not go, but i know you have to so i'll be strong for you my love, my friend, and my life.as i see you leave me i wonder if you'll come back or will i never see you again?that's when i breack down and cry but you dont look back because your already gone.i want to run after you, i want to be with you but instead when you come back if you do i dont know were i'll be or what i'll be doing but i'll never forget you.i never told you this but i love you. i dont know if you already know or if you'll exept me and my feelings but if you come back from the war i'll tell you everything.good-bye my friend, my love, my life and my dreams.