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Today I lied about my age for the first time. Well not really the first time; but the real first time I lied about my age was when I was 13 pretending to be a 16 year old. But first time in a long time I suppose. Also when I was 25 and felt the dread of my thirties coming; I decided to be 30 for five years whenever someone asked just so I can accept that it. But both of those times I was doing addition and now that I'm actually thirty; I've done subtraction for the first time.

I was on set today and after wrap, the producers asked one of the PA's (production assistants) to drive me home rather than me take an Uber because I wrapped early. The location was on Long Island and home-base/office for me is in the Bronx so its about an hour drive. We just talked while on the way when she asked me how old I was. I said I was 25, so minus 5 than current. I have these asian genes that make me look younger than I currently am. So I figured it's not an unreasonable lie.

It felt weird at first because she then started giving me life lessons saying I'm still young. She was thirty herself. I told her how my day went, how I was in "troubleshoot/problem solving mode" till lunch time because of a lack of conveyed information from the producer's end. And that even when I solved the issues/problems, my mind was still on high alert. So for my lunch break I didn't really eat much and just smoked outside just to relax. Her day was similar-ish. It felt oddly comforting having an "older" person dispense career advice to me and how I should stand my ground towards these producers when it comes to information. Though I already knew that. I still have a lot to learn though.

Still, I guess I'm 25 again. After all, scientifically speaking, time is just an illusion relative to an observer's perspective according to general relativity.

- A.A.M