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Yes it should. It's been messing up my FFR game pretty seriously.

Oh! What's this? It has sto--s**t. I jinxed it. It's back. >XP Die, virtualbitch. I'm gonna go through every freakin' file on my hard drive to find the little POS. Maybe later.

Anyways! Yet more Han-chan IRL! I know you're getting sick of it, but bear with me. I have a life and I'm proud of it.

It's been a few weeks since N and I went to the dance together, and at first glance, most people would say that nothing's changed and that we should both just give up and go back to our normal lives of wanting what is unattainable.

However, they're not looking in the right places.

N and I have one class together before lunch. Except on Fridays, we tend to eat lunch together along with about eight or nine friends. We aren't snogging each other all over the place, but we try to sit next to each other. We always talk to each other in the ten minutes or so that it takes for class to get going. We haven't gone on a date since the dance, but we do see each other almost every day. I'm planning on sorting out a date with him after our last exam is finished.

But there's just... something... that's changed. I mean, for me, it's easier to talk to him. We wave when we pass each other in the hall. It makes me happy when he smiles and I get worried if he looks sad or anything. All I want is to be with him for just a few more minutes. This is the first time in my life that it's been like this.

Holy crap.

I think... I'm in love.

I'm in love.

I'm in ******** LOVE!

Shout it from the rooftops! Scream it at a concert! Sing it as you dance through the halls! I'M! IN! LOoOoOoOVE!

Okay, that would probably scare the s**t out of him. Shutting up. I mean, again, we're not that intimate, and he's not that intimate a guy, but I'm happy with that. He's someone I love talking to. We like the same things, but we differ enough that it keeps the conversation interesting. We haven't even kissed yet, but I don't feel like it. I just want to be with him. I feel confident and secure and so many good things when I'm next to him. I feel like dancing even now, while I'm just typing about him. He's positively brilliant. He's witty. And I think he's also got a little interest, otherwise he would probably shoo me whenever I start ranting. And he doesn't. Good sign. But...

Dammit, I just love him.

This is Han-chan, signing off.

Song of the Entry:
Shut Me Up ~ Mindless Self Indulgence