Music: Anberlin - Paperthin Hymn
Mood: Somewhere in Between o.o
I know it's been a while since I updated this thing, so I figured I would...for anyone that still reads it. My Gaian life has been...well a little weird since I haven't been on all that much. I'd like to see more of Deme but I'm not around when he is. I haven't talked to Dahlia or Alba in so damn long. I know Alba must be mad. Dahlia probably wants nothing more to do with me. Which is sad since I never wanted to hurt her. And even if we were just friends...I wanted to keep her around me. She made me feel different. Ea and Deme are back together and she's having his baby. I'm happy about that. They deserve to be happy.
As for me and real life...well that's complicated as all hell too. Shawn and I are back together. I went to see him on Sunday the 14th and we spent the entire day together. We were inseperable. We weren't apart for any longer than fifteen minutes. And we were always either in eachothers arms or holding hands. It was adorable, and I love him with all my heart. He admited he was an a** in the way he ended things before, and he says he'll do whatever it takes to get my trust back.
I've done bad things since then though...things I'm not proud of. I can't really mention them here...people think I'm a ditz already. I'd like to get it all out...to vent, but I can't. u.u
