Music: Saliva Going Under
Mood: Hollow... -_-;
Everything's felt odd lately. I've been working, keeping busy...and it's beginning to feel like there's not enough of me to go around, like I'm stretching myself too thin. It's only now though, in the hours before dawn that I find myself tired enough to get my true feelings out there. See...with me, when I'm REALLY tired, like about ready to crash and burn...I get really honest. Perhaps a little brooding, but very honest. I begin to realize...I'm not all I could be, and that scares me a little.
But there's no sense in getting all deep here, is there? This is Gaia...barely anyone takes my feelings seriously. And I guess I prefer it that way. It's just nice to vent sometimes. I hate what I've become. You all know that. Some of you really need to PM me more.
Pulling myself apart today
To see what's underneath
I analyze the things I say
It's a mystery to me
Why can't I be normal like everyone else?
Why can't I become something more than myself?
I reach and I'm trying to believe in me
But it's just too hard to see
Who am I now
And when will I be bound
What if I drown
I'm going under now
Lost like a ship without a sail
And terrified to fail
Sick of all the sickness that I feel
It's a mystery to me
Why can't I be normal like everyone else?
Why can't I become something more than myself?
I reach and I'm trying to believe in me
But it's just too hard to see
Who am I now
And when will I be bound
What if I drown
I'm going under now
