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I'm all ******** up inside.
He broke my heart.
Yet
All I want is to talk to him.
I'm disappointed in everything.
Unmotivated to do anything.
I never thought I could feel this.
But I know
If he were to talk to me
I'd be interested.
I'd feel something.
He's the only one I want to hear from.
Even though he won't say a damned thing to me.
And if he did, I bet everything that it wouldn't be
Affectionate.
I'd still cling to it.
Like I have all the emails.
Things he once said.
I've been selfish lately.
Thinking only of myself.
But I'm not interested in anything anymore.
Except my own musings, dark as they have become again
And Tony.
Author's Note:
I hate this. I have nothing to look forward to anymore. I know that I will never receive word from him. Yet I still find myself waiting for it. Praying for it. Needing it. I need him. My whole world just crashed. Ripped. Died. Everything about me is dead. Especially when I'm
Alone. Trapped in my head with memories that I can only write off as fiction now. Lies....Empty promises...When did oxygen start burning my lungs?
 kazuka78 · Thu Sep 29, 2011 @ 01:52am · 0 Comments |
