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I left you early
My mind didn't stop.
I caught myself wondering
"What's it matter if I go on to become a Librarian
or if I just die?"

I asked you
If it's bad
That I like you so much.
You said you didn't know.
I know now that it is.
Because....this onesided love
is taking everything from me.

It's not your fault.
Let me make that clear.
The fault is mine.
I love you.
That's all I feel.
That's the only truth.
Please don't feel responsible.
Not for my actions.
My mistakes.
My inability to handle this.

You're wonderful.
You knwo who you are.
You know I mean it.
For all my selfishness
and self-centered whining
YOU'RE THE CORE OF MY WORLD.
I LOVE YOU MOST.
NOTHING IS YOUR FAULT.

I gave of myself freely.
I surrendered my life.
My body is a shell.
Under the surface
is withering.

I'm in trouble.
I'm in serious trouble.
I can't get better.
On my own
I will never stop falling.

So I'm asking
Extend your hand to me.
I'll never let go.

But if you don't love me
I'll slip through your fingers
Like sand
anyways.

AUTHORS NOTE: I HAVE TO STOP BEING DEPRESSED. I HAVE TO. I NEED TO. I WANT TO. I'M NOT NATURALL DEPRESSED. I
M JUST IN A BAD PLACE AGAIN. WHAT AM I GOING TO DO TO LIVE.