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As You Die
I can't take this anymore
This is getting so annoying
You need to shut up!
Shut up! Shut up I say! Shut up!
I walk away from you enraged
I have had enough of this
Time for you to die
If you want to live
Then I suggest you run
But that won't do you any good!
I grab the knife and hide it
Behind me
I walk towards you with an evil
Smile
Your eyes widen as I lift the knife
But then, I realize
This would be too fast and easy
So then I put the knife down
And let you go
But then I see you on the news
You had killed one of my loved ones
That was it
I grab a rope and head to your house
When you walk in
I wrap the rope around your neck
You struggle to breathe
(but the rope will not loosen)
You scream as I'm killing you
(but nothing comes out)
You scratch away at me
(I don't even feel it)
You made a big mistake
Now I hope you are enjoying
Your slow and painful death
And as you die
I hope you burn in hell
And your soul will be tortured
Until the end of time!
You struggle to breathe
(but the rope will not loosen)
You scream as I'm killing you
(but nothing comes out)
You scratch away at me
(I don't even feel it)
Coming to you
Is blackness and nothingness
That is what you deserve
You lived in fear for so long
Now I am putting an end
To your misery
Now as you lie dead
I hope you learned something
But you couldn't have since
I was killing you
(killing you)
Killing you
(killing you)
The Darkness Within
I sit here alone and cold
Trying so hard
To keep from breaking down
I keep thinking of your sweet face
My fate is not yet determined
Though I must journey on
You haunt me in my dreams
You're always in my mind
(in my mind)
I cry and cry
Because of your death
I hold the darkness within
So t'will not unleash
The darkness within
Is unbearable
It holds me down
Holds me back from speaking
Make me weak inside
I'm screaming
(crying out for the pain)
I'm hurting for you
(the pain builds up deep inside)
I can't take this
(no no can't take this pain)
My eyes are cold
My heart is grey
I need you
I need you here again
(to take away all the hurt)
I love you
I miss you
I miss the way you used to hold me
When I was scared
Come to me and say you're here
Come to me and protect me from
Myself
This pain eats me up inside
I'm screaming
(crying out for the pain)
I'm hurting for you
(the pain builds up deep inside)
I can't take this
(no no can?t take all this pain)
Why can't you see?
I need some time to myself
This pain is too much
I need to rebuild my life
I need to look deep inside
And hide
I need to get away from it all
I wish I could make it go away
The darkness within me calls
The darkness within me screams
The darkness within me cries out
For more pain
(cries for more)
My Suicide
I lay on the ground
Screaming, bleeding
Crying out for the answer
To my fate
What is to become of me?
What does the future hold for me?
The darkness corrodes
In my mind
It lingers and lingers
While its spiny fingers
Point at my deception
And hold death before me
I shall not conform with them
I shall not give in
To its dark corruption
The darkness calls my name
(screaming for me)
The darkness tries to seduce me
(I shall never lose)
Corruption, deception, and deceit
All of it, lies
The darkness is reaching out to me
(you shall not have me!)
I fight the craving
I must not feed
It's black flames
Beyond the darkness I rise
To kill what has left me
Lies and deception
The key to evil
Corruption
The key to hell
We shall foresee
What the future holds
I do not care
For what is to become
We pay no heed
To what has been forgotten
Love and hate
Holds the key to the answers
Depression and compassion
Holds the key to my suicide
What is this life for?
What the hell is the key
To the answers?
Love, lust, and passion
Is the death of us all
We have been forsaken
The darkness calls my name
(screaming for me)
The darkness tries to seduce me
(I shall never lose)
Corruption, deception, and deceit
All of it, lies
The darkness is reaching out to me
(you shall not have me!)
We shall not lose this war
We shall defeat the enemy
And become the victor
Kill the monster that lives within
Kill the monster
(die b***h die!)
Kill the monster that lives within
Kill the monster
(you shall die!)
I'm on the ground dying
What is my fate?
Is my fate to lay here and die?
Is my fate to go on?
NO! I will not give in!
The darkness still calls
But it will not win
I will rise above
And kill the beast within
The darkness calls my name
(screaming for me)
The darkness tries to seduce me
(I shall never lose)
Corruption, deception, and deceit
All of it, lies
The darkness is reaching out to me
(you shall not have me!)
Is this the only key
To my suicide?
Depression and compassion
Love and hate
Lies and deception
Lust and passion
All of these
Are the key
To my suicide
(my suicide)
The key
To my suicide
(my suicide)
To my suicide!!
Dying inside
Oooh aaah
Oooh aaah
I was once a very happy soul
Never had a fear
Never had a worry
A happy family I once had
Long ago
I thought I had it all
Everything a girl could dream of
But when that day came
That day that split us all apart
I was depressed, I know
That this has hurt me so
My pain was a burden
What happened to you?
Why don't you care?
(don't you care?)
You used to talk to me
Once in a while
I can't understand
What's come over you
It hurts me to know you don't care
It angers me to not hear from you
You took my emotions and screwed them
All up
I need you to come back into my life
I'm dying inside
I'm trying to hold myself up
Trying to hold my head up high
Dying inside, father
Cuz you're no longer here
In my life
I'm trying so hard
Not to think about all this pain and suffering
You've caused me
But it's hard for me
Why can't you see that we need you?
Why must you be with that other
Woman?
(whom you left mother for)
Don't you see what she has cost you?
She has mentally abused me
And I no longer care for her
She has brainwashed you
You left your own daughters
For a world of loneliness and pain
I'm dying inside
I'm trying to hold myself up
Dying inside, father
Cuz you're no longer here
In my life
I'm trying so hard
Not to think about all this pain and suffering
You've caused me
But it's hard for me
Why did you do this to me?
You abandoned me
You threw me out of your life
And left me in a world of cold darkness
Now I have no fatherly figure
Because of your cold hearted ways
You don't even know what's going on anymore
My heart is broken
I am on the ground on my knees
Crying and screaming
Punching things in
Wanting to know
Why you don't care
(reaching out for you)
But I'm feeling nothing
Why?!
Why?!
I can't believe would let that woman
Hurt your kids
While we were there with you
Everyday another nightmare to live
every night a new fear to fear
I'm crying
Come back to me please?
I'm dying inside
Trying to hold myself up
Dying inside, father
Cuz you're not here
To be the father you should be
I've tried so hard
Not to think about all the pain and suffering
You have happily caused me
But it got the best of me
I hate you now father
You're a no good unloving dad
My sister has not stayed out of trouble
Because you decided to abandon us
You're such a ******** dog
If you're gonna do this to us
Then why do I waste my time on you?
My life is not exciting anymore
I have been angry
I have been sad
You have screwed me up
My life has been miserable
The only thing that Is happy and exciting in my
Life
Is my boyfriend
My one and only love
He is always there for me
He will never leave me
Like you did
You're not a father
You're not anything to me anymore
You're just a figment of my imagination
I hate you!
I hate you!
You left your kids and never returned
Why are you doing this?
Look what you've done to me!
I can't be happy now
I have no father
A big piece of me is gone
You are the cause of this!
I'm dying inside
I've tried and tried
But I can't hold myself up
(I am nothing)
I have to look up to my friend's dads
As a father to me
(I don't know what's real)
Now all I think about
Is the pain and suffering
I have been left with
For the rest of my life
(all because of you)
You say you love us
You say you care
But you don't even bother
To write or call us
It's hard not having a father
To look up to
It's hard to deal with all these problems
You left me with
So I am forever dying inside
Forever crying
(because of you)
 LadySapheira · Wed Feb 28, 2007 @ 03:30pm · 1 Comments |
