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Crying out
I am all alone in a dark room
I hear many things
But they are not what I want to hear
It's driving me crazy
I'm hurting
I'm dying
Will someone please hear me?
I need someone
Who will understand my pain
I keep thinking of you
And how you died
I don't know how I feel anymore
I'm enraged, confused, lonely
I cry out, but no one hears me
I'm crying out for help
Nobody listens
Nobody cares
Alone in a room so dark
And it frightens me
Wish I could just wash all the pain away
But I can't, I can't
Need someone here
To help with my fears
Help me with my mind
I hear them
They call out to me
But I just ignore them
Make them go away!
Forever calling, forever crawling
Forever dying, forever crying
Seeking all the answers
I find nothing
I see nothing
I still hear them
They won't leave me alone
Someone help me please?
Someone please hear me!
Sitting all alone
Still wondering
Still trying
To make it through
I can't stop thinking about you
Why must you haunt me?
Yes I still love you
But why did you let them do this to you?
I wish you were still here
To ease my pain
To make things right again
Since you have gone
Things have not been the same
I miss you
I need you
Here with me again
But nothing can change
What has passed
I try to let go of the past
But I can't let it go
It always comes back to haunt me
The dark room I sit in
Is the only comfort I have
And that's not much at all
Please tell me you feel my pain?
This pain has always been
It won't let me go
In a darkened room
With no light
Is the only way
I can try to forget
All that ever happened
I am forever crying out
Forever falling
Forever dying
Forever crawling
My soul inside is bleeding
Forever bleeding
My cries are never heard
I have been forgotten
I have been lost
Forever crying out
But still no one hears me
I am forever lost
Forever
I wrote this poem after my Nana Jenny died. I had some issues going on in my life.
Fallen (Watching Over Us)
Torn apart by this
We have been hit
with the worst tragedy of all
A soul who was dearly loved
and respected at the highest level
has fallen before our eyes
with no way of telling
how it could have happened
we are shocked
by the news of this
that has hit our hearts
and made the strong ones break down
It was just too soon
too sudden
for this to happen
we are left with only one question
lingering in our minds
Why?
Why did this happen?
We should all remember
That he may be gone
but he is not forgotten
he is up in the heavens above
watching over us
smiling down on us
as he watches over us
he shall be kept in our hearts
Where he will never be forgotten
He was a friend, crewmate, and hard worker
who always greeted you with a warm welcoming
smile everyday
Even if you had a bad day
he would always find a way to make you smile
He devoted his heart to the work put before him
Everybody here loved him like a brother
I know I did
We will all miss him dearly
May the gods keep him safe in the heavens
above
Mike, you may be gone, but we shall never
forget you
Rest in peace.
This poem was written for my friend Michael Gresham who had died in the backcountry program while he was still a corpsmember with me. I wrote it while I was on spike with my crew.
My Wounds
Time after time
Years pass by
And still I cannot see
What is hurting me
I have been searching
Deep within my soul
And have found no answer
Even though it was long forgotten
After all this time
I take some time
To review my life
My wounds deepen
As time slips further from
My grasp
I am trying to remember
What my soul purpose is
Have I been lost all this time?
Have I been too blind to see
What is going on around me?
I want to know the answer
I want to know where it lies
I cannot give into the pain
That has been calling my name
It craves for me to taste it
But I will not
For I have heard
That the taste of pain
Does not taste pleasant
I will not give into this pain
Which calls my name
It shall not have me
My wounds deepen
As time slips further from
My grasp
I am trying to remember
What my soul purpose is
Have I been lost all this time?
Have I been too blind to see
What is going on around me?
I want to know the answer
I want to know where it lies
I cannot give into the pain
That has been calling my name
Why must this be?
What is happening to me?
My mind is slipping away
My time is fading fast
Hide me away
Til the chaos is gone!
I feel like I am slipping farther and farther away
From you
Don't ever let me go
I don't want to lose you
You mean so much to me
I'm fading to black
Save me
My wounds deepen
As time slips further from
My grasp
I am trying to remember
What my soul purpose is
Have I been lost all this time?
Have I been too blind to see
What is going on around me?
I want to know the answer
I want to know where it lies
I cannot give into the pain
That calls my name
I'm losing this fight
I'm soon to fade
Soon to die
And be forever forgotten
Like most memories
In the wind
Like a bird shot down
I will be gone
Left in my own cell
To rot away
My sanity gone
My sense of feeling gone
The pain begins to close in on me
And swallow me up
How long must I endeavor this?
How much time have I left?
Is it enough to say goodbye
Goodbye cruel world
I leave you now
Goodbye my love
I will remember you
Always
I love you.
I wrote this song because it was inspired by Evanescence, it's basically about all the pain i have been through in my life.
 LadySapheira · Fri Feb 23, 2007 @ 10:41pm · 1 Comments |
