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well....seems like the hole world hates me........i can never find peace within myself....no matter what.........and my self louthing just grows day by day..............i can not tell every one everything no matter what......all the things i have done....and all the people i hurt by doing things.............i hurt all of my friends sooner or later....and t always get worse no matter what............some how i allways do.......and there realy is no way around it...............right now all i ever think of is dieing.......and it is geting harder to see everyone............because they are all so happy......and it hurts to see them happy and me knowng i can never be as happy as they are......no matter what............plus i just want to die.....it has goten to the point where i hold my dagger close to my chest and throut just to calm myself..........and i have not done that in mounths...........but yeah.....aother then that all i can think about is hating love..........seems like my plans to maybe find love will never come to be......because i can not find anyone i can date.....or try to date...............no one likes me...plus i bring dow every one....i know i do...they ust d not say it because they know it brings me down.............i can never make my friends happy.............and it just gives me more reason to die.............. ............ sings softly .........Wishing on a dream that seems far off. Hoping it will come today. Into the star lit night foolish dreamers turn there gaze...Waiting on a shooting star. But what if that star is not to come. Will there dreams fade to nothing. When the harisen darkends most. WE all need to beleave there is hope.....Is an angel wachting closely over me. Can there be a guiding light I've yet to see. I know that my heart should guide me but. There is a hole within my soul. What will fill this emptiness inside of me. Am I to be with out no we. I wish then for a chance to see. Now all I need. (Desperately) .....Is my star to come......

Posted by: Shadow Zero Tue Jan 25, 2005 @ 01:19am

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Commented on: Tue Jan 25, 2005 @ 11:56pm


	But you feel warm and fuzzy in side now as you sit right be hind me smoking a ciggarette... jerking off. So yeah take that. what yah going to do now???????? b*h It better be good... And it better be " twisted twisted 4laugh wink whee xp blaugh redface sweatdrop ninja " Riiighhhtttt ssuuurrreee you'll get me. rolleyes You should be domokun** I know you wanna hit that I know you wanna hit that hit that Nothing nothing nothing...out of the ordanary Bye yes yes Oh but I know how you can be and trust me I can't wait to see.

Commented on: Wed Jan 26, 2005 @ 12:52am


	wow.... and i thought i was a little over the top..... sweatdrop but anyway... i'm sorry.. but you shouldn't die.... here just read... this poem i like it... well thats just me but it has meaning... and also i wrote it so please be nice!! anyway.. you really shouldn't think to kill yourself.. i know it will get ride of all this stuff careing me down... trust me... i wanted to kill myself and i got close to it... but i remeber all my friends.. my mother would be crying.. and i couldn't do that to anyone... i just couldn't.. i hate my life so much but i don't want to hurt anyone... anyway this is the poem... wait.. not poem i mean song... hehehe.. anyway this is it! Even if you try! Stars never stop shinning Even if you try You never can stop a shinning bird Even if you try to Life will always have its bads and good Life can be a pain but it can have wonderful things If you try to make it horrible It will be horrible If you try to make it happy It will be happy as always Stars never stop shinning Even if you try You never can stop a shinning bird Even if you try to Times go by fastly Keep them in your heart Never let go of anytime Horrible, wonderful, emberising Its all wonderful to look back at Never forget or you will repet Its wonderful to remeber so never forget Stars never stop shinning Even if you try You never can stop a shinning bird Even if you try to Keep the good times going Even if it hurts Life short so keep it sweet Inside, Inside your heart Life is everything That is why we live Is to see, the pain, the happeness and forgiveness of this world! Stars never stop shinning Even if you try You never can stop a shinning bird Even if you try to

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