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Oh damn, I missed a day. Oh well, my multiple entries can make up for my missed day.
Don't you hate when you put yourself up to something, something big, something you wouldn't normally do and you work so hard at it and no one even comments on it?
You work so ******** hard, and you think you are finally going to get noticed when all of a sudden, when your work is done and your proud, no one cares. Ugh. Every time, this is the story of my life.
I wonder how the famous people did it. Like Beethoven for example, did he have any competing musicians against him? I know he worked so hard, but did he ever not succeed? Did he ever fail? Was he pushed to the side at first? Was he always pushed to the side? How did he over come it and not get discouraged, if it did happen? I wish I could have had lessons with this man.
Sometimes, it's at times like these where I ask myself, why am I trying this hard? I could just quit and no one would notice. I know better though, when I try harder and harder, weather I get recognized or not, my talents and effort only benefit me.
Although it would be nice to get recognized once and be that one girl who has that special title about her talents. A game of poker is never fair, and neither is life.
I bid this journal entry a good bye.