Is not the time that I wrote this, but it's the time that the clock in my parents' room is stuck on exactly. My favorite nap spot is their room when I just crawl into their sheets and lay my head on my mommy's ever so soft pillows so I go in there frequently. Perhaps that might seem strange, considering I'm sixteen in exactly a week, but I see nothing wrong with it. xD Their bed is more comfortable than mine and my room is always too hot. Anyway, fhe clock used to tick and tock, but now it doesn't and I don't really remember when it stopped ticking and tocking, but something tells me it was two years ago. I'm strange. o____o;; Lately when I go in there to read, watch TV--which I could just as easily do in the living room or in my own room but the one in my room is tiiinyyy-- or just lay down I stare at it and wonder, "What was happening when it stopped?" "Was it 10:42 in the morning or in the night?" I s'pose I'm just curious like that and wonder about those things.
Uwah, I want the Final Fantasy Piano Collections sheet music books. I'm not half as skillful as I'd need to be to play what is written inside, but it gives me something to shoot for. My ultimate goal for right now is to get good enough to play Salut d'amour by Elgar by the end of my senior year. That's around the time of Jesse's birthday, so I'd dedicate it to him. Somehow. Maybe a youtube video? :3 back to the FF sheet music books, I grew a real sort of attachment to the songs. I don't think it's uncommon for people who played the game, but I never have. I always watched my older brother play them, each about... three times? At least. So when he was trekking over the World Map, I often would fall asleep and the songs would be my lullabies. I'd get mad when he played overnight while I was sleeping and I missed part of the storyline that I already knew. Just a few days ago, or maybe it was yesterday I was thinking about another chain of games he used to play and I'd watch which was Metal Gear. The fourth game on PS3 he hasn't played yet and I was thinking, "Maybe sometime he'd play it and I'd watch and find out how it ends." This is all while I'm doing summer reading too of Maya Angelou's I Know Why the Caged Bird Sings and how the inevitable growing apart of Maya and Bailey unfolds. I almost wanted to cry because I didn't want to think of how we, my brother and I, would have to do that too. Well, I think quite a part of it has already happened. He's been away at college and university for some time now, four years soon to be six since he changed his major halfway then switched back, and I hardly ever get to see him. By the time he's out of college, he'll be looking for a job, or a girlfriend, maybe even a new flat, and I still won't get to see him as often as when I was younger. That's practically a given. And now I'll never know firsthand how the Metal Gear saga ends! Ahaha~ I guess I could wiki it, but what fun is that. Maybe by the time he gets time for stuff like that, he'll be disinterested (although I somehow doubt that he'll ever be disinterested in that) or it would just be weird for it to be like we used to. Me, sitting on his bed under the sheets watching him play and fight baddies&monsters only to soon fall asleep bent over my "indian-style" crossed legs and then him raptured in the game and going "Augh!" every time he died. -sigh- I don't think it's gotten in my head yet that we all have to grow up. It hasn't sunken in that I'll have to be self reliant and will actually have to search for a spouse, and that things won't fall into place like a shoujo manga or in novels. Actually, I hear growing up is optional, you just have to pretend you're grown up on the outside. That's no fun either. To have to shape to society's norms. Man, life is effing hard. D: Why didn't anyone tell me this when I was a fetus?!
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