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I am a fool to think i could change
to think that i could be happy
and defy the inevitable
to think i could have joy
but it stands now that i have fallen
never to rise
because it seems he stopped reviving me
i am wasting away at the end of a string
he barely seems to hold
i seem to matter temporarily
if he is mad at her
but once they are on good terms
i am second, low priority
i become worthless, he stops needing me
he stops wanting me
and starts wanting her
i was all set to believe he loved me
i was all set to overcome this sickness
it is harder than it seems
when he stops talking to me
to talk with her
stops thinking of me
to think of her
it isn't easy to know you are slowly but surely
being replaced
by someone you can't even hope to match
hoping to mean something to someone
you're not even good enough to look at
trying against all odds to defy your own value and worth
when you have none to speak of
trying to feel something better in your life
when it hasn't changed at all
when the conversation stops and your left with
that horrible silence, after he tells you
that THEYtook second in a make-out contest
and you rack your brain and battered spirit
for praise, and false laughter and smiles
because what else are you going to say?
"you know, it kills me when you tell me that"
he'd hate you for that
but would you rather be hated, or nothing?
how would you like to be forgotten, and unable to forget?
how would you like, the only person in the world who makes you happy
who YOU NEED
to turn on you and tell you
" i need HER now"
 kazuka78 · Thu Jun 25, 2009 @ 08:39pm · 0 Comments |
