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...Yeah...so far no news from Kelzo.....So I am going to try to go over to my friends house to see if I can talk to her......Hopefully there will be good news.......Because I o not know how much longer I can take all this ******** s**t that everyone throws at me........... *Sighs* I went over to Kelli's house yesterday..............not as I thought it would be........It started out nice....We talked........and I told her why I wantto get the F*$# out of here.......She took it better then I thought......Things for me went bad when Kelli got mad at her bf......So that made me feel abit bad because I tryed to calm her down abit....at first it worked........then he left when we got to this one place.... (We where to meet some friends up there... ) But when he left and I went over to Kelli to ask her how she was she told me to leave her alone......... (not in that way ....but..yeah....) So i left her alone.....and when one of our friends went to try to get Kelli's bf back I waited shuting my mouth kinda near Kelli........after awhile I went to cheack up on them...They where on there way back so that was a good thing....Then when Kelli and Mark (her bf) where close to each other they still where kinda pissed......so...we left them alone and went to the back.....After awhile I kinda passed out for a minute or 2......( Not going to say why.......) But After I came back I just went and.....kinda lost it on a dumpster......... (hopes no one heared what I yelled.......) ....Allmost broke my right hand and allmost halfway broke my left hand.......And cut my arm up pretty good..... (Is kinda glad no one knows where I keep my razor......not realy glad but you get my point...) But yeah.......so that went over so well that I allmost got all the way numb.....yeah...so it went from a 40% to like a 70-88%.....so...yeah..........Not like I am geting better now is it? But not like I could care.......Once it is done I will not have to woory about hurting other people with me being in love with someone else insted of them...And no one could tell me they like me and me care.... (Hopes it happends soon) but yeah....thats all for now.....Life sucks and then you die.....Hopefully the second part happens to......Well I am about to se if I can go over to my friend Bobby's house.....so....yeah...what ever...............