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ok sorry everyone for not giving an intro but this will be a venilating entry. I am pissed and sad at an extreme measure. The girl I mentioned in the entry before this. She said some words that hurt me yet it relived me at the same time. Long story short. If put in the situation to leave her behind. I will, she has let me go and I will do so. Honestly i thought she was the one. I've had a few signs that she wasn't but I ignored them. First mistake I made.

Now I understand why the bible says trust no man. I understand it now...though it hurts I get it. I FREAKIN GET IT!!! *sigh* if she was the one she wouldn't have said those words to me. though I need to talk to her I can't reach her. But then again she doesn't know what kind of damage she has done to me. Nor does she know I'm trying to talk to her. I'll wait patiently....hopefully I won't do anythign stupid until I get the chance to talk to her. I am so pissed right now I can't express this enough *sigh*

All my life I went everywhere alone. Being the only child, moving around so much. I grew up being alone. I met her thinking tha would change. I couldn't have been anymore wrong. I guess I will continue to live life by myself. I don't have a lot of friends. Though I am mad at her I will keep my friendship with her. But she would count as the 2nd friend I have on this earth. I don't have a lot of friends, maybe acquaintances but not a lot of friends.

*sigh* I admit I am hurting right now. I'm hurt, but then life is full of dissapointments right?