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It's been quiete some time since I've been here. So much has happened... A lot of life changing events I must say. I haven't been the same since I left this place. Things are still changing...I don't know when things will come to a halt. Maybe it never will. Schools starts soon and I'm very uncertain about it. But the reason I came back to write this journal is. There are some people who I have become great friends with. And importantly there is someone who I believe I hurt.

I know I didn't handle the situation the best way. I didn't know how. Reason why I left was because... I was hurting myself. No I was not cutting myself. I was always trying to find a way out. Eventualy things lead to anger and sorrow and I didn't want these things to effect my friends. I didn't want them invovled. It was so bad I didn't want anyone invovled. What tore me apart was. What I was dealing with I couldn't tell anyone. For if I did, my only answers were huh? and I don't understand.

This was a hard thing for me to deal with. Even till this day I have another side, another story that no one knows about. Maybe someday I wil find someone who not only has knowledge but understanding of what i'm going through.

Shara I am sorry for leaving you int the cold the way I did. I'm sorry for not explaining my situation with you. I hope you can find in your heart to forgive me. Maybe someday we can make amends with each other.