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My Reflection.. my reflection is always not noticed all the time, i feel like i don't even exist in this world where i am right now, people don't understand me here, the only ones who care the ones who have sticked by me and never left me behind like any other friend would, i know i can be weird, and crazy, but sometimes i get really touchy now that it scares the living hell out of me of what's happening to me, i don't even know why i feel so touchy to people, and i feel like i have myself sometimes in lifetime, my lifetime has just begun when i was a little girl cause i don't want to go back to that life where i was 11 and stuff cause its what has happend in that time, i sometimes think no one listens to what i have to say about them or how i feel about em, cause i really want them to know how i feel about em, and if i don't i have to keep it inside, i have always had someone there for me, but now i see a whole bunch of my friends that are there for me, and i would never wish nothing more than my friends being there for me for all times, and i know they won't leave me behind, i think of all of my friends day and night cause they are the ones on my mind all the time, i always have dreams, not bad dreams, good dreams and that i can be happy with them without having someone, i know i can cause i believe in myself, and if i get hurt, then i'll probably be still touchy, and still the same me, maybe it'll happen you never know, but anyways this is how i feel about myself...

Posted by: Kittiemuffinz Mon Dec 31, 2007 @ 02:41pm

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Mystic BlackPanther
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Commented on: Mon Dec 31, 2007 @ 06:42pm


	Awww Crystal I notice you alot =D i don't know about other people but in my world you exist!! And i'm weird and crazy too ! =D lol But i listen cause if i didn't why would i read and comment you journal if i didn't =O anyway's if you do get hurt i'll be there to help >: D

Commented on: Mon Dec 31, 2007 @ 08:13pm


	omg dats deep T~T im one of those friends ;3

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Commented on: Mon Dec 31, 2007 @ 08:44pm


	;D I believe in you.

Commented on: Mon Dec 31, 2007 @ 08:53pm


	I'm like that a lot. I mean people don't listen to me much either. Its just how our family is I suppose. People are just like that unless its like a one on one thing. But sometimes even then no one listens, it just depends on the person your talking to in the family area. Friends though...they usually listen to me most the time. 3nodding The ones who stick around are the ones worth it all. Their the ones that should be most important and most reliable.

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Commented on: Mon Dec 31, 2007 @ 09:19pm


	I agree with pandy that is deep crying but you know i will be here to back you up and i wont leave you behind

Commented on: Mon Dec 31, 2007 @ 09:50pm


	I know how you feel, sometimes your friends aren't always there when you need them the most, I feel like I dont belong, or I have my own sense of living, that no one agrees with sweatdrop but I get by it somehow and I feel like I'm being challenged... and never get the reward... xp

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Commented on: Mon Dec 31, 2007 @ 10:02pm


	Hey im here for you if you need somebody to talk to. I'll always be a friend waiting to talk to ya ^^. Your not alone so never think that way. I listen to what you have to say about things the most my tiny brain capacity lets me (lol). But you shouldn't feel bad about yourself. Your a great friend and you've always been there for me so i'm always here for you.

Commented on: Mon Dec 31, 2007 @ 10:24pm


	I'm always here for you gurl!

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Commented on: Mon Dec 31, 2007 @ 10:41pm


	a dream really is what your heart makes ^.^

Commented on: Mon Dec 31, 2007 @ 10:43pm


	I know sometimes im not around a lot......but to tell you the truth even when im not around im still thinking about you and how you are even though i don't get around to asking you a lot you know me im a free spirit, i go were ever the wind takes me.................which is usually down the street to Maren's but i know if im in trouble or upset i can count on you to cheer me up i think that out of everyone in the family your more like me than anyone else.......your easy to talk to once you get past the trust issues and the comfortableness around them. yes it is easy to do on the computer but in real life its hard and i should know........and yes im touchy too, but who isn't and some more than others but im the same way at times like if i don't get to see someone i love and yes i will admit Vince can push my buttons but you will come to find that the ones you love most will always be here even when sometimes it seems like they aren't and you know it takes courage to grow up in a family like we did.....so many pains so many heart breaks words that at times should be left unsaid but what we need to remember is all of those things are what make us into the person everyone knows and loves...our likes and dislikes our pros and cons and the way we succeed.....and our faults sometimes the family isn't what makes the person its the friends you should know that i mean look at me lol im not perfect but........to the ones that love me and care for me.......i am. I get hurt and i get smashed down by the people who are supposed to care and i still get back up and i succeed in the one thing that i know they didn't................ will power and strength. But no matter what always remember that the strength in one heart isn't judged by how much *YOU* love.........but how much you are loved by others heart

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Commented on: Mon Dec 31, 2007 @ 11:47pm


	I agree with pandy tew..that is deep..but i'll be there to back yew up also. You know that saying ''Friends don't let friends down''? well sometimes friends don't follow that..i do follow that. I won't let yew down Angel. =] I beleive in yew Angel. =] <33 =]

Commented on: Tue Jan 01, 2008 @ 12:01am


	Wow... I like to think over the view of myself a lot, but never have I put so much into it as you! But I very much understand you, as I've thought of people not listening to me =P They think I'm crazy, going against the wave of what's popular, but I go with the flow of what makes the most sense to me... Anyways, you've got lots of friends! You made a friend out of me too 3nodding and I'll try and be the bestest I can be 4laugh

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Commented on: Tue Jan 01, 2008 @ 12:30am


	Agree with Danny and Wafflez. Im one of those friends...sorry if sometimes I go in for the bad side....im like messed up in the head..>.< But yes. Im always i mean always here.

Commented on: Tue Jan 01, 2008 @ 02:19am


	see crystal we wouldnt ever leave you behind if we didnt notice or pay attention why would we even still talk to each other but everyone here dose notice

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Commented on: Tue Jan 01, 2008 @ 07:27pm


	Awww sad hugs

Commented on: Tue Jan 01, 2008 @ 09:07pm


	all I ever wanted was for you to get that you are a wonderful beautiful person and everyone can just go to hell if they thought anything different. ok?

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Commented on: Wed Jan 02, 2008 @ 12:04am


	meh

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