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i hate myself right now, it seems the whole ******** world is carving on me, and i am the one who is taking the ******** blame for everything i have sacrficed, no one knows how i feel, because right now i am sad, i hate me, why am i ******** alive, I MADE A PROMISE TO MY FRIENDS to say here, and one of them leaves me all alone, in the darkness, and i didn't even do anything, its my personality, i may be weird but at least i know how to be sad and know how i feel inside, i am really hurt, all he thinks about his other friends but me, why am i the one to blame why, why am i the one to blame, i don't get me at all, i hate me so much its not even funny, or cool, i wish he would just stop JUST STOP ignoring me, because he's part of my life just like my friends are, but no he has to be stubborn and be a jerk to me, and never gonna talk to me again because i'm a failure i'm just a worthless son of a b***h that no one gets T^T i just wish he could see i am really trying not to get him in my mind because i care and love him because he's my friend, even if he does hurt me, i still love him and care for him as always i did, but i don't care if he doesn't feel the same way, i can still have myself, i can't give up, i care too much to give up