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i know ur talking about me
just end it already if ur ******** done jesus christ i cannot stand a jealous mf
i said i felt bad but i dont. not one bit. i really dont care. what i do in my life is my business and knowing that i have to walk on eggshells with any choice that i make just triggers the "i dont give a ******** about you" part of my trauma brain
starting to wonder if im even capable of loving another human.
i barely feel anything for my immediate family. the only reason i know i love them is because im comfortable in their presence and id be sad if they disappeared.
but even then
im so ******** numb 24/7 that i cant fathom being sad about it? brain is weird for that one
when me and jordan split after being together for 6 years i felt nothing. the worst part about the split was getting used to the change in environment. i can talk to him now with no emotions at all
i cant have fun with someone else without you getting jealous
i know you dont act on it and dont go out your way to make me feel bad about it
but vague posting when i know exactly what ur talking about is pretty funny lol
idk
im tired of needing to like, monitor someone elses emotions for everything that i do. im tired of being thoughtful of others. i want to be selfish for once even if that makes me the bad guy
shrug