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i am a terrible person
i dont deserve anyone or anything
im so ******** sick of interacting with people and trying to maintain a level of normalcy bc all i ever do is ******** up everything
all i ever do is make ppl upset
im just so ******** tired man
ppl are upset with me and i didnt even do anything. they're upset with me over things they're not taking priority over, insinuating that i should be the one to engage the activity when they're just as responsible for it
i legit just wanna neck rope. im tired of being here. im tired of juggling emotinos. im tired of being upset. im tired of me upsetting people.
i just want to be alone. i want ppl to leave me alone. i dont wanna live anymore
but i cant do that bc im too chicken s**t
ill never do it bc im too chicken s**t
so i just gotta keep going another day. and another day. and another day
same s**t over and over. its never going to end.
im going to keep making people upset. im going to keep ******** up. im going to keep being a terrible person. im going to keep being a burden
i hate people. i hate their emotions. i hate their thoughts. i hate the way they talk. i hate the way that i have to literally overthink every thing i say and do with people to the point where even talking for 5 minutes is exhausting.
im done