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i hate the idea that ppl think they can "exposure therapy" anything out of autistics
YOU CANT!!!!!!!!
MAYBE. MAAYYBEEEE. there are a few things that u can. BUT THATS ONLY IF THE AUTISTIC PERSON IS WILLING IN THE FIRST PLACE
exposure therapy and ABA are ******** traumatic for us
it is just us getting triggered over and over and over and over and over until our brains give up and accept it
ITS LITERAL TORTURE
so no. im NOT going into large crowds of people. im NOT eating my vegetables. im NOT forcing small talk with strangers. im NOT working at any job that forces me to be subservient to the customer.
im fine with the way my brain and body work.
its a long ******** journey to accepting it, and im still working on it since its a literal disability that makes me unable to function in an allistic society, BUT ive done way more for my mental health by simply accepting the fact that im autistic rather than guessing and guessing and assuming im broken and unfixable
of course i have burnouts still
of course i have bouts of depression still
im living through trauma. im unlearning ableism. im unlearning hate.
im learning how to love myself for how i am rather than how i "should" be
so yeah. im still eating mac and cheese as a meal. eat my a** karen