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Coment if you want.....I realy do not mind.....just no judging...... (Can not spell very well...and talks odd at times so try to bear with)
Life forever lost with out them....Lieing here in my bed my mind is raped in thought of them.....driving me insain wiht the thoughts of them with another......Here I lie down and dead...here I lie with on my bed...Forever now gone and dead....forever now lost within the darkness never abell to break free to the light.....Only the faded momories of it remain.....only just driving me insain....lost now forever more.......I lie here...thinking of what may have been....lost now within my mind.....I lose myself wihtin this emptieness i feel........

Gone now forever more...They have left me.....Gone...Gone like the times we once had...gone now within the sreams of time......so now I lie dead.....lives gone and onced live huant my mind now........Screams I hear...Screams of pain and sarrow......Huanting me forever more......THe lives I once saw end in front of me.......Gone where they yet I still remiand.....How angerd I was to see them go and leave me behind in this world......Wish as I may I can not join them yet.......Yet I long for my day to come.......Gone now are my times of longing for love....Now is the times of my death....Flashing befor my eyes I see myself lost within it darkness.....So far out of reach.........Walking in streets looking for cars....Watchying the headlights come to me....like a heavnly gow.......THe warmth of the cars engein...the raoring of it thrills my bones....KNowing I could die.....But it moves out of reach...out of the way....The warmth and glow fades away like the light of a candle.........How I long to leave this world.....>How my dagger taunts me.....With its sharpend blade...The cold feel of the metal....It thrills me to feel its cold grasp on my skin. Knowing with one move I could finaly leave..........How I wish..........but...how it is ment not to be......why.....why must I live?.....






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The Painted Skies
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commentCommented on: Wed Mar 23, 2005 @ 10:36pm
That was beautiful. Oh, how i can relate. Death is very taunting indeed...


commentCommented on: Thu Mar 24, 2005 @ 05:50am
Oh woe is me that you should not share your burden with me... Yet i ask you time and again, but you still cease and desist, as if i were nothing to you. I am a light, a light in this world. THrough me you could once again see light, and although your words speak as if you want to have me as a light, your heart doest not speak the same... Open your heart to me, so that i may feed it with love, laughter, life, and light and give to you the most precious gift that one could ever recieve; unending and unconditional love and forgiveness. You cannot be forgiven for something that you will not allow others to forgive you for, but i do it anyway, in spite of what you may think. Do you honestly think that someone with my blood would forgive you on a whim without considering it first? No they would not. I forgive you because you deserve forgiveness, because of the sorrow and pain that you suffer for what you have done in your past lives, and i deem that worthy in mine own eyes. Nay, you may believe in my God, but alas he forgives you yet and has a place for you in his kingdom of heaven if you choose to accept his hand in some future repast. But he is not the reason that i forgive you. I forgive you because of the love and the light you are capable of acheiving. I lvoe you for the same reason, and i am in love with you because in your heart you are still passionate and compassionate. I love you for the person that you are, and i am in love with you for the passion that you possess. Respond to me, oh love, so that i may console you in these times of depairing need, that i may comfort you and give you consolance and retell the stories of love repast and forcast that i may give to the only one i am ever in this lifetime willing to recieve it to. But do so at your own bidding, i wish only for your happiness, and that you may acheive it in any form...



atomos
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