PM to a friend of mine
CrimsonHart
so basically your avi, suits the mood? feeling a little imprisoned?
not much actually, sat on my duff, and waited for tommorrow...it hasn't come yet...grrr
not much actually, sat on my duff, and waited for tommorrow...it hasn't come yet...grrr
... Maybe I feel imprisoned. I actually don't know WHAT I'm feeling right now.
I'm so confused about my boyfriend. It seems like it's this huge rollercoaster (yeah yeah, ******** cliche's). Everything is just up and down, up and down. Three times already. We've almost broken up twice. And now... every time we're on the phone, it's just... silence. And I can't figure it out. He says that nothing is bothering him, and I don't really KNOW if anything is bothering me... and we both agree that we feel like things are going downhill. Again. And we don't know why. And we never know what to do.
Last time this happened, we decided just to hold on. We were THISCLOSE to breaking up. But we decided that just the love we had was worth holding on to. So we held on. But... now it seems like even THAT is going away.
I hardly see him. We live 30 minutes from each other and go to different schools. How did we meet? Church Youth Group Band. I'm a singer/keyboardist and he's a guitarist. We met about a year ago, and got together in october. I only see him about once a week. Once or twice. If not less. Our lives... they seem to conflict in so many ways. We always end up on the phone for an hour or more after 10PM because we can't find time to talk during the day; either he's at Sylvan (he's a smart kid, he just doesn't do his homework), or i'm at a piano lesson/rehearsal/audition/practice. ... It's so jacked up.
Sorry for venting to you... i just needed to let that out. You can offer advice if you want... I'm subtly asking for it sweatdrop
Just thought I'd post my venting here... just in case he tweaks out or something. I don't know. I need to let this all out elsewhere... someone might actually read this.
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