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Dreams shattered, hopes destroyed. Emptiness is all there is I'm just so lost and confused right now. I don't know what to do anymore. After a lengthy chat with Tear-chan and various emails to my cousin, aunt, and special friend, I'm questioning my life. I've basically coastered through life so far, but now I think I've hit a bump in the road. I'm torn between two people who are so dear to me, but I cannot choose one over the other. My mom speaks negatively about every little thing I do that I believe will be fun to explore. She's not open to any of my ideas. She believes that only her ideas are right and everything I do that conflicts hers are wrong. I've spent most my life growing up to please her and to make her happy. As of last year, I've met someone special who makes me happy. She disapproves of my relationship and wont listen to me about anything because whatever I say is wrong and naive. She complains that I don't tell her anything about my life anymore. So I make the effort to tell her stuff that I want to do, and all she does is get mad at me. I can't win with her. My mom is impossible. Expressing my feelings a various people have helped, but I'm still feeling down. My life seems hopeless if I can't do anything right.

Posted by: Fake AP Sun Mar 13, 2005 @ 06:51am

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Commented on: Sun Mar 13, 2005 @ 10:43pm

Commented on: Mon Mar 14, 2005 @ 01:52am


	pokes Nad xp After getting some sleep, I'm feeling a little better now. My aunt replied to my email, and I think I'm going to call her one of these days so that I can actually talk to her about it. My mom was so pissed yesterday that she told me to email my aunt and ask her what she thinks. My aunt is such an awesome person. She actually understands what I'm going through because her daughter (my cousin) has gone through similar experiences while she grew up. I need to talk to my aunt.

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Commented on: Mon Mar 14, 2005 @ 08:28pm


	falls over like a cardboard cuttout surprised yay! for your aunt if I was in your situation...I'd have no one to turn too... then again...I dunno if I'd ever be in your situation... o,o my parents seem to be plotting something....it's creepy...

Commented on: Fri Mar 18, 2005 @ 04:12am


	It's going to be a month or so before I can talk to my aunt. She just left to take care of her first born grandson. With my constant mood swings these days... I don't know if I'll be able to wait that long. sweatdrop

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