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Depression

I am in a depressional void
Not knowing what to do
The earth outside looks comforting
To lie under its heavy cover like a blanket
Slowly choking the life from my body as I sleep

A knife might be nice
To watch it slice through the flesh
And not notice the pain
For I'm already in pain and waiting
Waiting to die

To sleep in peace under the earth
Just to close my eyes and not feel a thing
As my body goes limp
And I can't feel a thing not even a fear for death

I've been trying to wait my turn
But I can't wait anymore
As the rain splashes down onto me like a reminder
Of how trapped I am in this world

Of how much of my life is just misery
And ashes circling around in the wind
None of my friends know of my pain
All I have is the rain and the ground

That I keep staring at and thinking
About the never ending sleep
That chases all of us down
The time quickly runs out
But not for me