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I see people all around

and a lot of good friends talking to each other

and most of the time I don't understand

what people talk about

I feel weird because I find my self always

alone and sad

day go on and time moves fast

I keep finding my self always making a mess of things

I'm to weird that I don't find the place were I belong

I can't find a place were I can have nice long talks with friends

having fun and enjoying life

laughing and feeling great

but I can't

most of my friends are far away

and I have no one to talk around here

most of the time I spend daydreaming

and wondering and using the magic question

"what if?"

every were I go I find people being happy

I have tried to get into conversations

and try to make friends

but most of the times I don't understand what they're

talking about or I don't like what their saying

is hard to find a friend

I'm always alone and always daydreaming of things

that will never happened

I most be some weird guy not being able to make friends

and I don't want to pretend to be something I'm not

I don't want to get friends that way

sometimes I think I'm going to be alone for the rest of my life

anyways nobody cares what happens to me

if one day I die nobody would even care

sometimes I think it would be a good thing

I think it would make a lot of people happy

if I die

I know some people would be sad

at the time but in a couple of days they would completely forget about me

it would be like I wasn't even born

I wish for a lot of things

but I know done of them would come true

and I don't know if I can ever change the way I am

maybe I'm crazy

or only stupid

because I can't find the place were I belong