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I can't understand why I always make a mess of things

all I want is to help my friends, but

sometimes I feel like I'm hurting them

and I'm only getting on their way

always making a mess

I try to do the right thing but it never works out

I don't know

I feel they would be a lot happier if I was gone

yet I don't want to

to me thy are good friends

and I want to know them better

and have fun

and be happy

but I think I'm the one that's not a good friend

I'm the problem

always making a mess of things

I'm always being so pathetic

I'm a terrible friend

maybe because I'm a terrible person

I can't help to be sad most of the time

and I don't like what I'm turning into

I'm such a pathetic mess