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Title : The Reality Dream
Author : Chrysta
"Leave it behind you, forget it, let go"
The voice called me quietly,
It was a voice I didnt know.
I was scared and afraid, lost and confused,
I did not want to live with pain,
My spirit was broken and abused.
The call was so light; I felt free and could breathe,
The voice told me it was okay now,
That it was time for the end and I could leave.
I looked down at my wrists -they were no longer scarred,
My spirit did not hurt,
My heart was no longer marred.
The voice had no source, it just called to me,
"You were not born to take this pain,
this is the way it should be."
I followed the sound for it sounded true,
I followed it to heaven and looked down,
And there kneeling in tears, I saw you.
I watched you closer and realized that you were sad,
That I had left and gone away,
You did not understand why- that made you mad.
The voice suddenly whispered again in my ear,
"Forget them they live in the world of pain"
You are better off here."
I suddenly realized that the voice was a lie,
And with closed eyes I shook my head.
I dont want to die.
The voice suddenly vanished; all I saw was black,
I was in a cold sweat and realized it was dream
I was more than glad to be back.
So no more voices in the dark, no more dreams of suicide,
For I know deep down that I am loved,
And that I would be missed if I died.
I dont want to kill myself- I know it would not be right,
And I credit my choice to live,
Because of the dream I had tonight.


Title : I know, I am
Author : Johnny Mac
I know youre strong
I know youre weak
I know your deepest secrets
The ones you couldnt keep
I know your past
And I am your future
I am hope, I am love
Im the one you've been dreaming of
I am torn and tattered
You are broken and alone
You are all that ever mattered
I am all you've ever known
I am the ghost in the mirror
The one with the tear in his eye
I love you not, is his only fear
You are his only reason to cry
I am the shadows on your ceiling
The ones mistaken for the trees
I am your one and only feeling
I am the protector of your sleep
I know that you still miss me
I am the pictures on your walls
I know that you can live without me
I am now just your lost cause


I went to a party,
And remembered what you said.
You told me not to drink, Mom
So I had a Sprite instead.
I felt proud of myself,
The way you said I would,
That I didn't drink and drive,
Though some friends said I should.
I made a healthy choice,
And your advice to me was right,
The party finally ended,
And the kids drove out of sight
I got into my car,
Sure to get home in one piece,
I never knew what was coming,
Mom Something I expected least.
Now I'm lying on the pavement,
And I hear the policeman say,
The kid that caused this wreck was drunk,
Mom, his voice seems far away.
My own blood is all around me,
As I try hard not to cry.
I can hear the paramedic say,
This girl is going to die.
I'm sure the guy had no idea,
While he was flying high,
Because he chose to drink and drive,
Now I would have to die.
So why do people do it, Mom
Knowing that it ruins lives?
And now the pain is cutting me,
Like a hundred stabbing knives.
Tell sister not to be afraid, Mom
Tell daddy to be brave,
And when I go to heaven,
Put Daddy's Girl on my grave.
Someone should have taught him,
That it's wrong to drink and drive.
Maybe if his parents had,
I'd still be alive.
My breath is getting shorter, Mom
I'm getting really scared.
These are my final moments,
And I'm so unprepared.
I wish that you could hold me Mom,
As I lie here and die.
I wish that I could say, "I love you, Mom!"
So I love you and good-bye.