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"When you love someone so much"

A girl asked a guy if he thought she was pretty, he said...no.
She asked him if he would want to be with her forever....and he said no.
She then asked him if she were to leave would he cry, and once again he
replied with a no.
She had heard enough.
As she walked away, tears streaming down her face the boy grabbed her arm
and said....
You're not pretty you're beautiful.
I dont want to be with you forever. I NEED to be with you forever.
And I wouldnt cry if you walked away...I'd die...


"Do you"
can't my screams be heard
muffled tones through the heating vent
whisper about me, I'm sure of it
in this one-way microphone
just Too bad they're talking
about my grades and detentions but not
the cuts on my arms or dark circles
under my eyes Look look
I beg you I'm screaming as loud
as I can when my own choked voice
makes no sound I'm still screaming
Still screaming and wondering when
I'll end this horrible waiting game
of show, not tell.
Do you
know what it's like to always
be sad to always be gloomy
and scared? Do you know
what it's like when you run
all over the house searching
for razors, because your mom
stole yours? She thought you
were suicidal and she maybe
was right can you touch
my desperation? rip the pack
of blades she hid in her sock
drawer behind the condoms
she only wishes I wanted
Do you know what it's like
to not care about tomorrow
because you're not planning
to be here anyway? You don't
know the shatteringly beautiful
droplets of your own blood
as they slide from skin. You
can't. None of the living know.

~ Sarah, age 15.


"Poem by a Cutter"
Burning pain in my arms,
Stops the burning tears.
Slicing the skin calms my doubts,
And helps erase my fears.
The anger is so strong at times,
And my pain becomes too much.
And I long to feel the calmness,
Of the knife's forgiving, tender touch.
As I watch my blood pour,
My sanity soars.
And I long to feel the pain once more.
To those who may not do this,
I probably sound insane.
But this is the only way I know how...
To ease the blinding pain.

By Ebeth016, Jan 17, 1999