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Yesterday must have been one of my worst. I mean really inbetween the breaking of dishes and getting pepper in my eyes. Which was bad enough. I did the worst thing of all, I still can't believe i said those words of vain to the one that mean the most to me. And in the end I felt as if I torn my heart into peices small enough to fit through an eye of a needle and I still feel like that is not enough torchure. I have caused such pain I don't deserve life anymore.... I shall never upon my whole life utter that again. In doing this I found out that words are more pain full then any other phycail pain. It is somthing that stain the soul and causes someone to burn there own emotions to the core. In this now I know that somethings are to remain hidden no matter what. History as I know is something that is fragail. And I hurt someone by reminding them of there most painful moment in life. I never mean to do that again. I can only pray that they will forgive me and see me how they used to. But I can understand if they can not. I don't deserve any of there feelings or forgiveness.
Broken tear,
Fiery Blood,
Souls Burned,
Horrid Memories,
True Reviled,
Past Shown,
Ever Lasting,
Endless Sarrow,
Overwheleming Pain.
Sorry doesn't even begin to tell how much I feel bad about what I said to you.
 Erogassa · Mon Jan 31, 2005 @ 08:39pm · 3 Comments |
