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most of the times I don't have dreams went I'm sleep

went I have a dream is because something big is happening around me

to me if I dream I know is a sign

like something I most find or do

is weird how I close my eyes at night and weak-up the next day

with out a dream the night for me it takes about 5 min.

all I see is pure black like is empty or something

some time ago I had a dream about a girl I meet in gaia

and know I'm still trying to find out the meaning of this dream

and I can't let go of it an till I find out the meaning of it

what is more rare to me is went I have a nightmare

I normally don't have nightmares

not even the most scary movie, story, strange thing, or evil things

gives me nightmares

is weird

In the nightmare I find my self losing friends

friends turning there backs on me walking away

I stay in the middle seeing everyone leaving me

I fall and find my self being alone

in a dark hole

my own shadow laughs at me

with no were to go and nothing to do

I keep telling my self

"I will never see them again, and why did I think I deserve to have friends?

why did I think I could be happy?

why did I felt in love?

I don't deserve any of this nice or happy things

I need to stop thinking and start realizing that

I will be alone for the rest of my life

I will only find the end of this life"

this nightmare has been hunting me for about 4 days know

and I'm starting to believe it

I'm starting to think is true

my heart tells me differently

my heart tells be that is wrong for me to even think of such things

but I can't help but to think about it

and realise the sad true of my life