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I went to prom last night, even though i am just a sophmore. I had lots of fun dancing. A few guys came up to me and danced for a second and I got to slow dance with my two best guys, Bobby and John. I love them like brothers. They are so cool and I really like hanging out with them. I got my hair and makeup done professionally. I was so stressed out that day.

My boyfriend, a real a** if you ask me, broke up with me just because I told him I wasn't going to prom and then I told him that I was going. He thinks I lied and I did not. He is a complete a** and needs to learn not to be so bossy. I think the reason he wanted to go out with me was because he failed with another girl and wanted to make it up by controlling me. all we would do was sit and play video games. I hated it even thought i liked the games. All he would want to do was play resident evil, a single player game, and would never pay attention to me. I tried to help him a few times because i have read the book based on the game and it had the last part of it in there. he just said "I know the order, Kate. Just let me do it." I wanted to smack him and cry at the same time. He never made me feel that smart. When I first me him i thought he is way out of my league, no I know I am right, but he is the one below me and I am above him. He never tries to tell me these nice things.

Heather this part is for you. I wanted him to hold me, talk to me, just lay around with me. I wanted him to tell me things that would make me feel pretty or wanted. He would tell me that I was beautiful but he would never tell me any of the things he was thinking. I want a guy that will be open about what he wants, what he feels and what he thinks would be fun to try. I wanted to have a romantic night sitting alone in the house, maybe watching a romantic movie or two, playing games and talking about what we wanted to try out or do. But he just wanted to watch the comedy channel or watch movies that would bore me to death. I tried to be open to thing he was talking about, take maybe some interest in the things he lked but he would never be open to my kind of things, he must think i am a wayward child to be pushed awauy when he got irritated or just some thing he can tell his buddies about. I immagined him saying "Look at the girl i snagged. she may not be as cute as the girl i really want but she i smart. She will do anything i tell her to do. I just went out with her because I couldn't get the girl I wanted. The other played me for a fool and never liked me." WELL HELL, of course she didn't like you. You are a DAMN FOOL. you try too hard to be the best, insulting people like you rule everything. I was glad that you went away. I want you to know that no girl will ever find you interesting. you are too stuck up on yourself you little b*****d. No one ever liked you, NO ONE.

It is over now and I hope that he has learned his lesson. He might get his head out of his a** sometime and come begging on hiis hands and knees to take him back but I will not. I think that i will never get over him but I will forget about him.

My friend Jennifer wants me to go to prom with her and another friends but my parents don't want me to go. But oh well I just wanted to get this out. I will shut up now.