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What do you think when you are all alone in your house or bed? What goes through your mind at times like these. Do you stress about things that you did and what you think you should have done? Do you just let the calm still you and bring peace to you? When I am alone I think of things that will never happen. Things that should not be spoken of to people. I like to relax with a peaceful thought in my mind. It is about love and being swept off my feet into arms that will hold me tightly until I am fast asleep. Or I think of what I will do if I am alone for the rest of my life without someone like that. Sometimes I am so lost in thought that I end up waking and it is another day and I am alone. Sometimes I feel like he is there that I expect him to be there when I turn over and open my eyes. When I feel like this my heart beats faster and then when I realize it was just a dream I feel so empty but I know I must go on. I want him to be there and hold me close and tell me how much he loves me. I need to be able to look into his eyes and see him looking back at me the same way I am looking at him. I want to smile and see him smile with me. When I close my eyes I feel him with me but it is not nearly enough for me. I want to be with him in his arms, being loved and loving in return. I hope it is not to ask for. I want him to be for the rest of my life and I would be there with him until the end of his. I love him with all my heart. And that is never going to change.