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Slowly i rise
To the occassion
Im dressed to kill
Thats my only pursuation
To a life of hate
Im only a spec of dust

These trifle memories
From a long lost history
Are torment on my mind
A letter to my apathy

You must be looking so full
Of yourself right now
Why in the end i was cruel
Blood spattered lens Im a fool
To think you were the solution to my doubt

If all is said and done
And the rest is up to you
Is it easier to say i will
Than to say I do

Running short on theramone
I've conquered love
So why am I still alone
My spirit cushed
Im torn to shreds
No longer Ritaline pills will i be fed
Its nothing a few drinks won't fix
I've fallen in a trap love was a ditch

There's all I know in a bottle
I've kept it hidden from you
To know if I can really trust anyone
I wanna see what you'd do

If i took this knife and said goodbye
Would you come running to me
Tear drenched face
Arms open wide
Or would you back away
And call for help
And let the paramedics check my blood
While you stand by and watch me drown

Will you love me
'Til death do we part
Or am I just a checkered flag
Weighing down on your heart
I ask this of you everyday
But you never take this pain away
I'm sure there are other things
To do than to say it