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I know I should be strong and brave but I just can't anymore. My sister gets to see her boyfriend everyother day and I haven't seen mine in. . ., God only knows how long. I can't help but cry at the feeling that I am not good enought. I love him so much and I know I should feel happy i get to talk to him at all. I just feel like curling up in the middle of a highway and not caring if I die. I just want to feel his arms around me one last time. I need it more than anything in the world. I would love to hear his voice again, telling me that he loves me and that I am the only one for him. He is the only one that I will ever love. I know I am not making any sence, that is because I am just all stressed out. So don't read this and be like, is she going to kill herself? No, I would never do that to him or me. He would die if I killed myself or hurt myself because I couldn't see him. I should remember that he is in college and I am a sophmore is high school. It was a wonder he even noticed me in the first place. I love the way he makes me feel. The person that I want to be around him is so different than the one I am with others or by myself. He makes me feel like I could do anything. I love it, I love everything about him. I miss his smile, his laugh, his jokes but most of all his kisses. I love them. When ever he speaks I just can't help but listen, I know I am crazy but you have to be if you are in love. And that is exactly what I am, in love. I wish I could shout it so the Gods could hear me, so that everyone knew how much I love him. He is the first guy that has loved me for me and not taken me for granted. I began to live again when he asked me to be his girlfriend. I had thought my heart had shattered into a million tiny pieces that would never be fitted back together. But he changed that. We are putting the pieces back together and finding that my heart is now more capable of love than ever before. I should never have gone on this long. If you read this it will be a mericle that you didn't fall asleep.