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What am I soposed to do when my friends dont know the real me and I have a problem.I was always there for them but they cant understand how it feels to live a double life

Azkul is back but he was soposed to be dead what am i soposed to think or feel i loved him but didnt remember cause of this new life

and found someone else but he stayed true i hate life and everyone no one can understand what im going through i dont care what u humans think I'm dieing inside ur one protector who cares fof all live and now ur not there when i need someone

i would rather die than betray someone again maybe thats best i dont got anything in life to look forward to anyway a stupid human job and middle class life and husband and kids that i can never tell the truth to

i wont live that way maybe if i die then i can finally set the balnce right and be wth him and all will be beter cause i sacrified myself for others to live and so i could be with him

im lost in a world of lies and wars i dont belive what i c and i can hear the cries of the innocents but im alone in my quest to keep the balence whatever comes of me doesnt matter there is always my brother to take my place

i just want it to be like it usd to with my real parents and home i miss home and my friends and my brother and john and mostly Azkul and how it was when we were together.