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My heart belongs to three
Split and undecided
The first one is not my first love
it took seven years, but that one means less than nothing to me now
no, the first person to reside in my heart
he's been there for me
through a lot of stuff that he could have just left me alone
even when he was happy with another
(and im shocked at how many that line applies to)
he was always there for me
i might be able to really be happy for his happiness now,
but i still love the man
the first man that i thought i really loved after my first love
the second person that has taken control of my heart
they controlled me for a year before we started dating
and then nor now, do i resent that person for that
my old lover, but then again, not quite lover
my heart could have been their toy
but i know i am loved and i still love
but i love from afar
because its not right for me to be with the person
that i want to spend the rest of my life with
at such an early time in my life
i will come back for that one when i know im ready
when i can only hope they will accept me back
the third inhabitant/owner of my heart
they actually earned my heart
there are some who i have given my heart to
whether they wanted it or not
and others whom may have wanted my heart
but i could not give it to them
but he, this guy earned my heart and my love
its difficult to say that, when, every time i think of him
i think of him as a kid
hes not even two years younger than me
hes even a little taller
but its his childlike personality that makes me call him a kid
but i also fell in love with the carefree smile
and the extreme silliness that allowed that smile back on my own face
even when i had problems, even at times that i wanted to cry
the only way he let me cry, was tears of laughter
i laughed because he made me laugh
not because everything was fine in the world
but i was happy with him, despite my problems
what can i say, i love him
even if i call him a kid
and say hes a moron and a goofball and a spazz
i still love him
 Ayala55 · Tue Dec 01, 2009 @ 02:56pm · 0 Comments |
