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	A glimpse inside the mind of a writer... Works of poetry and random quotes, both by myself and those that gave me my inspiration. As well as ramblings and dark thoughts of one deeply disturbed individual, namely, myself. If you dislike anything in here, feel free to go to hell. Simple.

	Suicide
	Suicide


Ebony_Tear · Wed Oct 12, 2005 @ 08:21am · 3 Comments


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	The service was today, 10-13-05, at eleven in the morning, and damn me, I was too much of a coward to go. I couldn't stand the thought of seeing all those people, including my closest friend, crying like I know they were. I didn't pay him a last respect and I don't even feel all that guilty. Services are for the living, not the dead. I haven't cried yet, not sure if I will, but I know that I did the right thing by not going today for it would have broken me. Offline Ebony_Tear · Community Member · Fri Oct 14, 2005 @ 03:10am


	I can't understand the way you feel about your schoolmate. I have never been directly connected to a suicide and I'm lucky enough to only have one friend die in my life so far. Like you I didn't attend the service. I had an infection in my right hand and I had to be taken to the hospital moments before it began. Whenever I think about it I wish I could have just toughed it out for only a little while longer. Half of the people at my school went to the service and I never asked what it was like. I have never been to a funeral and that was the only chance I had to be at one. This one person deserved those moments of my time and sometimes I feel like I took them for myself. It feels wierd but I don't see myself as a coward somehow. I believe we make are own desicions but there's still a meaning for everything. I don't want to say how to think or anything but I'm saying that maybe we both missed a funeral for a reason. I can't see why and we might never know but it happened. Now I just try to keep the memory of my friend alive and be happy for the time I knew him. Offline ZkiTso · Community Member · Sat Oct 22, 2005 @ 08:39am


	There are so many people in the world just like Cody. I myself used to be one of them. It's just sometimes so terribly hard to go on with life. You think you're cool, and you think you have friends, but the undertone of it is that these 'friends' are not friends. People actually tell bad lies about you behind your back. These 'friends' gossip about everything you tell them to keep secret. Life is not fair. It is not just. But... When I see people who are like Cody, it really burns me inside. It makes me feel that maybe, if I was there at that moment in time by their side, could I have done anything to make them change their mind? I myself changed my own mind, even after writing a long extensive death note on my computer that talked about all the nasty things in life I just couldn't deal with. I hate those who do not understand people who need help, but I also hate those who abuse the fact that they have the power to kill themselves. People who go off saying "i'm going to kill myself" over and over but never do it really grate at me, you know? And there are just so many of them in this world now, craving and hungering for attention that they might get if they say that that it's hard to depict where the REAL suicidals are these days. -sighs- It's too bad this Cody did that. And, what a terrible way to die. But, don't feel too horrible about it. It was his choice and he alone made it, even if others did play part in his affections towards this idea. It might have been a rash dicision but it happened, so please let it go if you have not already. I'm sure he wouldn't have wanted people to brude over it for days and days and weeks and weeks. ... smile Offline Koichi · Community Member · Fri Apr 14, 2006 @ 03:09am

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